ugh.

[artofdefiance]

gosh this is so hard. i have such a wonderful family. really i couldnt ask for better. yes we may have our problems and our difference but as a whole they are the most loving people ever. the problem though...they are all such strong christians and have so many personal convictions. and i unfortuantely do not have the strong faith that they hold. i

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[lylemootz]

i totally feel you.

thats how its going with me and what not.

really, id pray out loud for it on your own time, and read the Bible or look up things on the internet like i have, go to one church session, see how it goes. honestly, put your heart into it, you wont lose anything if you try, i promise you if that doesnt work, theres no point in believing in something you dont feel is there =) hope that helped!

[artofdefiance]

aww lyle i love you. thank you. i shall try.

[lylemootz]

i love you too amanda, i dont think you realize truly how much i miss you.

now that im living with james again [dont know if you heard] i should hope for you to drive down here soon to hang out with us, if not him, i miss you a lot, and its been way too long, i miss having those one on one talks and itd be nice to help you out in any aspect [if needed]

please call me or hang out with me soon, dont forget me, i love you =)

[artofdefiance]

no i hadnt heard actually. where are you guys living? and i will

[ohthisisglamour]

It's the same way in my family too. Everyones a devout or strong Christian apart from me. You can't force yourself to believe something that isn't there. I did that for a while too, and I actually felt like I lost a part of myself rather than gaining anything. You have to stay strong in your feelings and believe whatever you believe is right. Otherwise you'll live the rest of your life confused and unsure of everything else.

[artofdefiance]

yeah i totally understand what your saying. its defiantely an akward situation. weird. i miss you girl. remember muscial boys hahahahah

[boatoffalsehope]

gods a bummer