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Just wanted to air out some old boxes of memories.
a couple of things urged me today to look up a comunity for cutters. I don't cut anymore promise, but i just wanted to read what those people had to say. I want to cry right here at work just break down and cry all my makeup away. I still have urges but having broken skin for 2 years. I would like someone to talk about it with. Maybe even help someone make me feel like I had some purpose for going through all that. It makes me sad because I know what its like for these people and I know how hard it is to stop. whats worse is i know what its like when the people you care about and want to care about you are discusted by what you do. when they don't understand you have a problem and it isn't as simple as just slicing yourself up. But then I wouldn't know what to talk about if i did have someone to talk with. I mean i'm all better now i dont' cut and i know its wrong to cut sometimes i feel like i need to explain myself to feel justified but i know that I dont' and that my true friends will never ask me to. Maybe its one of those things that people just never get over, no matter how many years you can go without doing it you'll always want to. Who knows.