I had the worst oral surgery yet today.  8 hours later and I still can't talk and am bleeding profusely.  More surgery next Thursday.  =( 
Trying to focus on upcoming projects but this is getting me a bit down. 

Fuck you, 2010.  Bring on the next year of oral surgeries, betrayal, humorously large doses of existential despair.  I remember last year starting so well... the first half of the year, despite the dental stuff was promising.  Oh well.  Fuck it.  Thirty or so more and it'll be over.

My counselor started crying during session today.  Probably not a good sign though it is sort of humorous.  I've had a shitty week and, all in all, a shitty year for the most part.  I hope it gets better... I don't want to bring a child into the middle of all this chaos and negativity and I can't seem to stop it from surrounding me. 

Had another dental emergency last week.  As hard as I've been working, it's still hard to keep up with some of these bills.  Scary stuff but at least it's coming to an end.  Working on lots of music though things keep breaking.  On a kick with collaborations right now.  Working on some stuff with all manner of people, some friends, some fellow ( Read more... )

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New material is close to surfacing.  The studio checklist has some pretty interesting things on it.  Not sure why I am still updating here.

fuck.

not getting any better, worse it would seem.  i came so close.

Just finished potentially final mixes of Amphetamine Butterflies, Hallucination, A Glimpse Stolen From Mireaux's Diary and an instrumental mix of Labyrinthine and Corrosion (which I think may need to be edited down).

staying in alone tonight.  tired.  wish i could afford to fix my instruments, i have things to do and the current troubles with my main guitar and bass are beyond my level of expertise (which is about a 3 out of 10, I admit).  maybe i'll play kirby and heavy rain or have adrink.  i rarely do that... meh.  i need some motivation.  on strike from ( Read more... )