hello me.
i hurt.
alot.
sometimes it is hard.
with the great lack of familiarity.
people are ignorant.
i am ignorant.
i am new.
i am unimportant.
i am insignifigant.
i hurt.

i really didnt want this to be my whining journal, but.....

i hurt : (

fine, ill just stop trying to make friends with that person. matt sharps solo effort isnt very strong but i wish him the best of luck, but i want him to go back to weezer, that would be great, it was special when he did that duet show with rivers...it made me like weezer again for a few days. it stopped though again.

work is not fun, i cant go to my friends shows. listening to something corperate makes me lonely, i dont get why people listen to it when they are already sad, it does not help. i am itching to play music. one of the two stock guys at work that are cool had their last day today so that kindof stinks. works alright i guess, it pays. drums are ( Read more... )

so i drive to band practice and back with the music blaring, i was singing and screaming along the whole time it was great ( Read more... )

suburbanized selfish children. thats all i see, thats all i read. all thinking they are somehow high classed because they watch movies and read books that they believe make them seem intelligent to watch read. knowing in the back of thier mind that the movie isnt all its cracked up to be, "cause if i make it a big hype about it over and over maybe ( Read more... )

i now have a job, yay, and boohoo at the same time.

i also learned konstantine today on piano, honestly....because all the girls i know love that song. yeah yeah yeah i know.

i dont understand. good conversation is so important to me, but its not needed. i always thought thats ALL that mattered. i had a defined view of what being cultured was, and an intracate system worked out in my head. why that didnt sound right from the get go i dont know how. i mean it was a reasonably good way of doing things i guess. to give ( Read more... )

i had alot written but its hard to put my thoughts into words, or to not constantly contradict myself in what i want to say.

yours truely,

the perfect example of a hippocryte.

sigh, i missed the deadline for loyola jazz camp. no drums in new orleans next week. so i am doing the next best thing, drum set camp at USM. that wont be that bad, i need an out of town break anyway, but i dont need it either, friends are good too, and even though ive been around them so little, i need a break from them right? but then again i ( Read more... )