I wonder if I'm fooling anyone.
I wonder if maybe I can fool myself.
My dreams are getting to me.  Back and forth.
I'm getting to me all over, over and over again.
I want to go running.
I want to go running far away from me.
I need my escape.
I'm a ghost.
I'm invisible.
I wish I was invincible.

Yesterday was probably the best day yet this summer.
XC was alright... I suck so bad though but I guess that's nothing new.
Then baking with Leslie.  Who knew baking soda was so important?
Whatevs... I guess I should leave the super secret monster bar making to my mom.
& Carlos with Mel and Kayla
Tennis!  Garsh I love tennis.
Sadly, no wings... I haven't ( Read more... )

Wow... so is this a new record?
Seriously?!
I feel like I'm in the fucking twilight zone or something.
Somebody wake me up.
ew ew ew ew ew ew ew gross ugh seriously... I mean... seriously? You have to be kidding.  Look me in the face and tell me this is for real.
Wow.
WHAT THE FUCK?
Karma's a bitch, eh?
This morning I was crying because I missed you.
I was ( Read more... )

I miss when sonic the hedgehog and Italian soda was enough.
I'm annoying the hell out of myself.
My head hurts.

I went to Illinois to visit a couple of colleges so I figured I'd say something for future reference mhm yea.
University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign was pretty good. The town was about the size of IC, except that there was a downtown and a separate campus-town.  The mall was pretty decent... which is important and all.  The campus was very big ( Read more... )

To be honest I'm REALLY fucking pissed off right now.
Okay that was a couple of days ago.
I'm still a bit pissed off but it's at least not consuming me currently.
Okay that was a couple additional days ago.
Now it's Monday and I feel like actually writing.
Summer has been going fairly well despite current circumstances. I have kept myself occupied for ( Read more... )

So I guess I've reached a numb stage.
I fear I might fall though.
Could you please tell me what comes next?  Soon?

Tonight was so so so much fun.  Getting soaked in the fountain with the foreigners, touching the water for satisfaction.  I'm going to miss them so much, I wish we could have gotten closer and sooner because now they're almost gone.
Being free and careless felt great.  I really need to let loose more often.

Today was the last day of seniors.  Nothing exciting happened.  It was not nearly as noticeable for me, as was last year when 4 of my best friends left 7 days before me.  Last year the most I remember is that Thursday, tomorrow, was the longest day I have ever had at school.  I was scared, and I wasn't even going to have the chance at something new ( Read more... )

why i love him
simply because we're fun
watching the movie and bugging Caitlin and filming nonsense and my puppy sneezing and walking and talking
and despite our stupid little bickers we're a great couple
and yea i love himmmmmmm<3