I did the deed (well, I signed it...)
Guess what? I now own a house. As of this morning I'm the owner of a little house that's just two doors down from my sister's. I spent the entire morning running between banks and then sat at a table for 10 minutes with a solicitor to sign the deed... somehow I thought the whole thing would be a little more earth-shattering and a little less like
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All the best to you and your mom in your new home.
No worries about 'numb' - it's protective for now.
Your sister and nurses all close by. Yay!!
Tanti abbracci a te,
buzzie
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It's really the best solution for everyone so I'm glad it's done but I just can't bring myself to be as happy as I should be. You're right that it's probably a defense mechanism now... better to not feel much at all than to let myself feel the void my dad's loss left me with.
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We're in touch elsewhere so I won't say much.
I know you have so much to do - clearing out stuff, decidin what to keep, to toss, to be conflicted over (keep? toss? keep?...) not to mention packing and, of course, caring for your mom. Perhaps the delays with the move are a good thing = more time to do things slowly. Also frustrating but you'll get to the new place and settle in. IT WILL HAPPEN!!! All kinds of strong, positive incantations have been sent upwards to help you. (How many kinds are there, btw? :)
Did I tell you in an email that we here are now the area with the largest @ of cases? And, have been declared a national disaster zone? Si, care - e vero.
Really, trump should be declared our national disaster zone but that is all I will say.
hugs you... &... here's another hug
buzzie
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I'm not packing anything at the moment because this quarantine will most likely continue until Easter (if not beyond) and I'm now convinced I won't be able to move in my new home until May at the earliest. So I've just stopped everything. I mean, I can't well live in a empty house here or take things out of boxes over and over now, can I? I appreciate all your positive energy, though, my dear! Thank you ♥
Be safe and stay isolated over there in the national disaster zone, ok? We're seeing an abnormal increment of deaths here and it's totally the result of the past weeks where everyone was still free to roam around. Yesterday we had almost 800 deaths... and yes, almost 1000 people were declared healed but still. 800 people died alone and are going to be mourned in solitude. It's something that breaks my heart in a million pieces...
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Chicca
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It does feel to me as if everything I've ever known is now being stripped away bit by bit and I think that if I allowed myself to feel the magnitude of the changes I'm experiencing one after the other I'd end up curled in a ball.. so numb is probably what I need to be in order to cope. I hope the excitement and the happiness will return at some point, but it's possible I'll have to let some more time pass and let the "new" life sink in before that happens.
Thank you so much for the suggestions and the link! I've always named everything I cared about, starting from stuffed animals and dolls when I was little and going on to cars, laptops, and even bags! It's a little quirk of mine and I'm definitely in need of a name for the house *nods*
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Chicca
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