trust

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lately i don't really feel like i trust anyone anymore. it's an awefull feeling. i have this feeling like everyone is just out for themselves and their own interests. the whole word really is about manipulation isn't it. you're nice to someone because you want something, you let other people take your risks for you

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[elrojo]

dude..
i know that being in the middle of our collaboration now, im probably not the best person to try to convince you otherwise...

but really... do you find that people are that cold?
I know a decent smapling of the people that surround you, and i have to say that despite the inevitable sparks generated by the meeting of strong personalities... there is some genuine communal dynamic/support structure there.

im finding it hard to articulate what i mean with an argument better than ... "dude it (collective action/being) is... ok!! it just is"
but it feels important to say so...

[mrrranda]

Matt, I've gotten very cynical towards communal activity and collaboration. I think it's hard for people to relate to each other or connect in general. Even when you're inspired or impressed by your friends' work, and they seem to feel the same about your work, it's difficult to identify what the bridge between you is, and whether that alone can create something that's both part of you both and it's own, new entity. (Am I making sense???)

I really wish I could be more articulate here, but I think you might be taking something too hard... Everyone is just out for themselves and their own interests - but this doesn't exclude genuinely altruistic people; if "their own interests" are defined by whatever brings them satisfaction or happiness, they can include helping other people.

I get fed up with other people all the time. I don't play well with others. I don't trust easily. But I don't want you to be like that....

If you want to talk about this more sometime, let me know when you're in Ann Arbor... I would love to do so.