Make me stop loving you
Title:Make me stop loving you
Pairings: Ohmiya, Yama
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: if only they were on sale, I would've bought them. Unfortunately not.
Genre: Angst
Summary: Nino loves Ohno who loves Sho.
Notes: due to some embarassing situations, I'm only posting this here now. orz ;;;; I already posted this to arashi love but.. yea lol
Loving someone was never this hard especially for a guy like him, who usually wears his heart on his sleeves. He didn't get why people were crying everytime he breaks up with them, he didn't get how much pain they felt that time, and he didn't experience being rejected by the person he love. Until, he met a guy named Ohno Satoshi. The guy was older than him, and the guy's in love with Sakurai Sho.
Nino and Ohno both knew each other for a very long period of time, and never once did Nino showed the older guy his weak side. Now, he's in vain, watching Ohno stare at Sho, memorizing his every move, paying attention to every detail, just like what he always do. It struck him hard in his heart how he managed to keep up with this kind of relationship and how Ohno managed to do all those things knowing that Nino have feelings for him. He's hurt, hurting and will always be in pain, and Ohno never bothered to get to know Nino a bit more. Ohno sees Nino as a strong man for he never seen him shed a single tear. That's why he knows that Nino will eventually end his feelings for him. But that's not the case.
"Oh-chan we should get going" Nino told the guy who was busy staring at his love.
"just a bit more, he might look at me" Ohno said, still busy staring.
Nino had no choice but to stay, it hurts him even more everytime Ohno acts this way. It's like being slapped right into his face how much Ohno loves Sho and that there's no way that Ohno will look at Nino the way he looks at Sho.
Then, Sho drifted his gaze at Ohno and slowly approached the other guy.
"I noticed that you've benn staring for quite a while now" Sho said in a low and husky voice that makes Ohno blush in an instant.
Their conversation went on, and Nino's drinking continued. He was like 'hello I'm here. I can hear and see you' in his mind, but never said it anyway. As Sho and Ohno was flirting, Nino decided to go without even saying goodbye.
He went home, grieving, and immediately laid down his bed. He kept on staring at the nothingness on his ceiling. It was dark, he was alone, he was sad, he's so hurt and he wants to cry but tears wont fall. In the end, he just let dream land take him into a deep sleep.
He's beloved sleep was disturbed by an annoyung ring tone coming from his phone. It was Ohno. Even though he don't want to listen to what the other guy has to say, he still answered the call.
"hello?" he answered voice still a bit rough
"Nino! Good thing you picked up the call. I have good news" the voice from the other line said, and Nino could tell that Ohno is smiling.
"what?" although Nino already had a hint in his mind on what thet good news is. He still managed to put on a show.
"me and Sho are dating" Nino's world just fell apart. The pain that was tearing his heart grew bigger.
"that's great! I'm so happy for the two of you, I hope you two get along well" no it's not great, i'm not happy, i hope you break up soon. Is what he really wants to say.
"I'll tell you the details later"
"oh, I can't. I'm not feeling so well today since I drank a lot last night. Maybe some other time" he said, trying to feign his true feelings.
And before Ohno could even say another word, he cut the line.
Those tears that didn't want to fall last night, came out like water falls. He was crying, anyone who would see him in this situation will feel pity. He's crying his heart out. He knows everything now, why people cry when he left them, why they begged those person to stay and what pain really is. He cried and cried until he fell asleep.
After that day, he started avoiding Ohno and the other guy didn't noticed it because he was so head over heels with Sho. Also, after that day, Nino started feeling sick and tired everyday. He's always spacing out. Of course, no once noticed. He was alone until Ohno came. His world only has Ohno in it, he had no one else to cry on, to share his problems or to lean on. Now that Ohno's no longer in his world, he's all alone now.
One day while on his way home, he stopped for a while. He remembered Ohno and everything about him, he cried before everything started blurring out then eventually black.
Say something I'm giving up on you
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere I would have followed you
Say something I'm giving up on you
Ohno heard of the news about Nino's accident and immediately went to the hospital. He saw Nino with a bandage on his head and some scratcheson other parts of his body while talking to the doctor.
"Nino!" Ohno said, worried painted all over his face.
Nino just smiled at him, then the doctor left. Leaving them alone.
"I'm so glad you're fine and nothing bad happened. What were you thinking? Standing in the middle of the high way?! Do you have a dea--" Ohno's outburst was cut off by Nino.
"i hope I died instead" Nino said flatly, eyes looking straight into Ohno's. His eyes was filled with nothing that it made Ohno shiver. This is not Nino he thought.
"you can leave me alone, I'll be fine. You have your Sho waiting for you. Don't mind me." Nino said with that same manner.
"what happened to you? Why are you treating me this way?" Ohno asked, feeling gloomy for Nino's attitude towards him.
"why? You're asking me why? Because I love you and you never really cared for me. So just like that, let me vanish in your life because I can't take this pain anymore. You left me, the moment you start dating Sho. You never bothered to know my true feelings specially when you know that you're the obly person in my life. You knew from the very start that I have no one, and yet you left me. Now, living means nothing. I really wished that I didn't survived that accident. Because seeing you with another guy pains me even more than any accident" Nino said while crying and his voice was shaking. It was Ohno's first time seeing Nino in such state.
"make me stop loving you, I don't want to feel this pain anymore" he cried and cried, Ohno did too. He didn't know Nino treated him that way, he felt guilty for not paying attention to his friend.
"I'm sorry" was all he can say.
"I don't need your sorry, leave me alone" Nino said still crying.
The next day, when Ohno decided to make up with Nino and atleast make the other guy happy, Nino went missing at the hospital. He left without even saying goodbye to his friend, just like what he did when Ohno first talked to Sho at the bar.