so i talked to angel last night for a bit. we aren't hanging out on saturday because his brother decided to leave today to go camping rather than on sunday :( i was sad but hopefully we will hang out when I come back from Vegas ( Read more... )

im really happy right now. lets hope that it lasts a while. im not going to make high hopes though. in case anything happens but still, last night was a really good night i had so much fun. yes, i spent it with a guy and yes he is a good guy. his name is angel. however i do not know if last night was a date or not. either way it was so much fun. i ( Read more... )

why do i do this? i lead people on and then i push them away once i find out they are pursuing me. i hung up on him today.. i dont know why. im an idiot ( Read more... )

i wish i could get away from here for a bit. if i could i would go to the beach right now. spend sometime alone. nothing seems to make me feel good anymore.

uh oh.. i think im really starting to like him... cant tell if its a good thing or a bad thing. he got my number and he texted me a couple times yesterday and wanted me to go with him to denny's after he got off last night but he didnt get off until 1 in the morning and i told him that i couldnt go. he still texted me at 1:25 this morning asking ( Read more... )

i like someone that i shouldnt like at all.. the thing that sucks is that i keep liking him more and more everytime we talk and do stuff. yeah. the other thing is that i havent even known him very long yet i care for him. people say he cares about me and likes me to a point but he knows that im underage and it wouldnt work out in the long run ( Read more... )

omg my daddy is the best ever. he totally surprised me when i got home from work yesterday with balloons and presents for graduation and a homemade cake that says congratulation ashley! yeah so i started opening my presents and i got a candle that says "warren 06" its so cute. i dont know if i want to use it lol. then i got a bracelet from my dads ( Read more... )

i think its about time i update its been over a month i believe. haha oh well. but nothing new has been happening and therefore i had no reason to write and ive just been lazy and exhausted. i still am. im emotionally exhausted to be specific. im so ready to graduate to get out of here and just be away from these people. im tired of the way people ( Read more... )

i know i havent done a real update lately. ive been getting my writing burst while im in school so i write there instead. i was looking through some stuff last night and i found a lot of papers of where i wrote my feelings and stuff down. im thinking about posting them but i dont know...some of the stuff are pretty personal. i really wanted to ( Read more... )

its raining and its beautiful. i never took the time to realize how much i really do love the rain.

i love listening to it falling from my bed.
i love watching it fall out of the window.
i love how its so cold but yet so warm.
i love how peaceful it is.
i love how im much calmer than i have been all weekend.

gosh i love winter. :)