well.. i lied.. things did get better... and im happy now ( Read more... )

it was just gunna be till i got my head together, till i made all my pain go away, till i could clear the confusion out of my head... it was only gunna be that long... i never said i dont love you.. i never said i dont care.. i wanted to try, i wanted to stay close.. after that i wanted everything to be fine.. everything was gunna be fine ( Read more... )

well.. idk what ive been upto... i hardly went to school this week... was in the hospital and shiz... o well ( Read more... )

this used to be my favorite song even tho its country... i love it.. and its suiting... well, most of it

Katie's sittin' on her ol' front porch ( Read more... )

well.. i ran across some skeezy bitches journal today.. apparently she likes to talk shit... wonderful i dont even know this chick.. so w/e ( Read more... )

well not much has been up ... ummm.... on Sunday i started peeing out blood, and then at about 8:30 that nite i passed out and hit the floor... it was weird, i woke up to everyone yelling at me to wake up and my sister smackingme in the face.. so needless to say, i spent valentines day in the hospital.. and yes,i have an infection... awesome huh ( Read more... )

im not allowed to cry..

im not allowed to be depressed..

im not allowed to complain..

so i just wont, this time.. ill be strong... this time, i wont be me..

SMILE LIKE YOU MEAN IT

well on Friday i didnt get to go to Keiths cuz my mom changed her mind... so i went out wtih Amy, Kat, Allie, Louie, and Andrew out to dinner.... o yea i got into Bridgewater State... w/e though... umm.. i got home and went to bed... and was up at 745 to go Westfield to see Keith... i got there and we watched movies all day and i fell asleep a few ( Read more... )

i just want it to be over...

all of it... it hurts too much to take :(

well i guess i wasnt gunna have school on thursday nor did i have it on friday/... i got the whole week off which made me happy... on Thursday i went to Alonzos... it was pretty awesome, we watched face off and talked the whole time... i ende dup leaving at like 615, which is a lot later than i usually stay... newho... he taught me how to do ( Read more... )