ahh...um i came home early and got stoned with AJ <3. My sister got stoned with us, and at this point coming on to my boyfriend....Nicely done. To stoned to even make complete sentences...can't write. :(

-Ashleigh xox

Lately, I feel really paranoid. I feel like everyone is out to get me. Like every-seemingly-genuine thing someone says has an alternate meaning, that they are trying to take advantage of me, and I feel vulnerable when I turn my back. Maybe I'm paranoid, maybe I'm insane, or maybe I'm evolving to deal with today's society, either way I beleive it' ( Read more... )

Today I went to the NL show, and Troy showed up and said he was only there to see me. I felt sick, I felt like vomiting. I went to his place, cuz we agreed on being friends and then he started bawling and going on about how much he loved me...and felt disgusted. So I left.. I don't understand why he keeps doing this to me. I can't deal with this.

Aight..so shits been crazy lately...umm my step-dads a prick, and i got myself into a mess..bah...stuff's difficult...meh ( Read more... )

Holy eff..people are so retarded, I saw a friend get the brutal shit kicked out of him last night. Sooo loaded...I was pretty loaded on Friday too..crusin wit the Nazi with Blackie n Dick, what a night bi, what a night. The Nazi was a fuckin retarded childmolester..what a efffin faggot he was..I was pounded off a colt..oh my, and then last night,I ( Read more... )

This world is so fucking fucked..I just don't understand the way it works. I don't understand why the nice, caring people, who would do anything to help someone, are always the people who can't find happiness, always the people who get hurt. I just don't see what's so great about life ( Read more... )

Today is Thursday, I met Ryan on Monday, he is so amazing and makes me feel so good about myself. He has made me so happy in the past few days then I have ever been. I never want to leave him ever, and I hope he never leaves me. I thought God had abandoned me, but he had this planned out the whole time, I just had to be patient, and have faith that ( Read more... )