Something has to change, Something has to happen. I really have to work on being patient.  I've lost all desire to do anything. Literally.

I just want to go into a corner and not be affected by anything. I hate my room, yet I'm in in 24/7. I went back and read some of my old Dead journal entries.. Same shit that was goin on then is goin on now. ( Read more... )

You're so happy now.... i should be happy for you... but, i dunno

WOW!!!! this weekend was COMPELTLY amazing... not because my bestest friends threw me a surprise party for my birthday!! But just because it was awesome!! haha

Friday Night: went to the basketball game. THE GAME WAS FUCKIN AWESOME!!! so many people were there and the whole crowd def. had team spirit!!!! WHOOOOOOSH!!! then  with Meg. Ryan went to ( Read more... )

slowly but surely i'm fallin apart...

well this has def. been a good weekend to add to my good week. i have no complants.. i'm perfectly content!!  Friday night i went to the JV girls game then came back here and chilled.

Saturday slept a lot ( always good) then stayed at noey's

Today, church, ate and slept a lot.

Lately, i've been sleeping a lot more, and eating a lot less. I don't ( Read more... )

well this week has been the HAPPIEST WEEK OF MY LIFE!!! why you ask?? i'm not really sure.. maybe it's because i stopped worryin about everything. or maybe it's because YOU and I are awesomely wonderful now? No one can understand how wonderful I feel to not worry about us. It's awesome!

Remember when you were little and you played ALL day outside ( Read more... )

well today has def. been an emotional day!! haha first at church i wanted to cry.. then when i got home i worked everything out and i feel surprisingly awesome!! Grabes, you were right worryin about things really isn't the way to go.. so instead of worrying about them.. i talked to him about them.. and we worked things out and i feel soo much ( Read more... )

( Read more... )

it's 2004, a new year! i believe my expectations were to high. This year was supposed to be different from the last. Yes i know it's only the 4th day of the year. But already things are just the way they used to be. nothing has changed. I absolutely can't go through another year if it's like 2003.  I don't even know how i made it through 2003. It ( Read more... )

i love music, it just makes you feel better! there's def. a song for every emotion you are feeling at any time!! i love it