to anyone who Ive been close to in these past few years.......  I feel I need to get some of these feelings out.

My first love;
David B.
I am so sorry to you.  You only did everything for me and I was just really scared and I didnt know how to act around you.  I liked you so much I had no idea what to say or how to say anything or how to act or ( Read more... )

so like last week was pretty good I guess.  It was my sissy's birthday!  and a piggy roast at my cousins.  anddddddd  my very first opentalk.  wow.  I was so nervous I almost walked off the stage but I didnt.  for those of you that dont know what an opentalk is; well.  its when someone with some soberity time usually over a year or so, shares there ( Read more... )

So like dont you just love when fucking idiots prove to you they can be even a bigger fucking idiot?
Well yeah I dont.
It just makes me sick.
I just really dont understand people who have 'mental problems'. 
And I dont get how someone thinks they can be playing these games and so be bluffing.
Iam just so glad Ive learned how to watch everyone else play ( Read more... )

so its like 3am, i have to get up at 7 and start driving to KY with jeff and my moms best friends daughter, we are driving her to school in ky.  we brought her home for the summer and i LOVE driving long distances i just love it so i am way excited about it....well expect the part where its 3am and im not going to sleep but a mear 4 hours or ( Read more... )

So like today; the boyfriend convinced me to sign up for MY FIRST open talk.
I am not giving details, I like hope no one shows up.  I am terrified already, Im not to good at talking in front of people, especially the worst moments of my life...
I dont know, I know I will do with without a problem, I am just nervous.

So Jeffs birthday is this week, we ( Read more... )

So like yesterday wasnt completely horrible, I only really made a fool of myself last night reading and like a lot of people came up to me asking me if I was ok and what was wrong....  Its nice to know that there are people who care about me and notice when Im upset or angry... My Stephies boyfriend is nice.  I love how we double date. lol ( Read more... )

 so yeah.  I am falling, hard ( Read more... )

 well, its bed time right now. eh way way way past bed time acutally.
so paramore was like amazing.  I had tons of fun!
The boyfriend has work in the am so I was just going to go straight home and it was still kinda early so I ran by the club to see if jessica was there, no.... so i went to the A frame with mike, jamie and julian.  
I really enjoy ( Read more... )

My birthing experience.

So it was Monday [jan 28th 2008]  afternoon 12ish and Im getting ready to take a shower and go to my doctors appointment.  Right before I get in the shower my water breaks.  I hurry and take a really fast shower and pack up the rest of my stuff and head to the hospital with my parents.  By 2pm I was all in my room and then ( Read more... )

alright, so as I guess some of you may know, I am pregnant. LOL.  I was completely shocked myself since I didnt think I was able to even be pregnant.  So.. God decided that since I wasnt making the right choices he would show me, that was suspected, but not in any means like this. haha.
anyways.....
Alainah Jade should be here any day now :D I have ( Read more... )