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Date created: 2004-07-30 00:57:58
So I am a little late but is that really something new?
I could talk about the past year but do I really want to go into it? I've had my fair share of relationships but I can't seem to hold a man down for long but that's okay. I've had my fair share of friendships and enemies, but there's no one I really harbor any bad feelings for. I've been through roommate after roommate but I love all of them for their own reasons. Now I live with someone who claims only to be half a poof but we all know that isn't true. In the time I've been here, my career has gone from nonexistent to semiexistent. When I first got here, no one knew who I was save for a few die hard OC and American Idol fans. Now, no one knows who I am still but I have quite a bit of modelling under my belt. I've decided to give up acting for the time being in pursuit of modelling, but you can still catch my movie Abominable in theaters in January. Be quick or you might miss it.
Hahaha I almost forgot about the whole part where I only ever signed on drunk and developed a reputation as MBP's alcoholic. Remember when I won Are You Ever Sober? I'm surprised I was ever sober enough to realize it.
I like to think that I've grown some since I got here; I was incredibly naive at first. I think I still was for another six months afterwards. I had my eyes opened but I don't think looking back on it that I'd want anything to be changed. I like where I am now. I could go on and on about all the people that mean the world to me but I know I would accidentally leave someone out and feelings would get stepped on. There are too many of you right now to even count and I think I have too much love in my heart for people, but there are a few that have been there since the beginning. Two have left me (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE) but not really and one hangs in limbo and I can't bring myself to talk about him BECAUSE IT STILL HURTS JAY HERNANDEZ. Sanoe, you have been my rock ever since the beginning and I can't tell you how much that means to me. There is so much more I have to say but I pretty much wrote that in something else that I still owe you and I promise I will post one day when I don't feel so stupid over it. I love you I love you I love you I love you a million times over. Ashley, where do I even begin? Haha no I am not talking to myself. You are more like a sister to me than anyone ever has been. I miss the days when we lived together and ate ice cream in the fort while watching the Apprentice and planning out our strippercize videos. You snuck me into NYU and I brought you donuts and we would throw parties with jello shots and people passing out everywhere. We had our issues but here we are still going strong and I love you more than there are words to say. Remember before we were friends? Neither do I.
Like I said, there are too many of you that I love (god I wish I hated more people it would make me a much more interesting person) right now to say something to all of you and I hate posts like that anyways. Chances are you know it all anyways. If I am still here in another year's time, someone please hack me and delete this piece of shit. Now who wants to chug some absolut vodka with me???
Okay so in talking to a few people, I realized that I really wasn't happy with this and I did leave a few things out.
Brittnay Snoho: You are the cutest thing ever and you need to stop disappearing so much. I love you like whoa and I don't even remember how we first met but it feels like it was yeaaaaaaaaars and yeeeeeears ago. You are my favorite stoner partner/jello shot addict. Remember those days? I miss them.
Jared: Where do I start with this one? You were my first real relationship here, my first love here. We started off in a rough situation and we ended in a rough situation, but in between, it wasn't too bad. We could be pretty mean to each other but we never meant it and you could be pretty nice when you tried. Haha cobwebs. I remember torturing Ashley with that thing that has to do with pigs and the boom boom room, and tiptoeing around Matt and Sanoe when we went there for Christmas. Remember when you, me, Jay, Ashley and MK all used to live in NY and throw parties with jello shots and fight over the fort and the floor. Ashley used to cornrow your hair and I would draw on you when you passed out drunk. Can I yell about your beard one more time? All joking aside, we had our differences for awhile but I'm glad we worked everything out because you are like one of my best friends.
Janeaners and George: You two are probably my favorite couple. I should write you your own things because you both mean a lot to me but OOPS I am pretty damn lazy. Janeane, you are probably one of the funniest people I have ever met and getting to know you this year has been amazing even though you disappeared there for awhile. You are so fucking hilarious yet in your journal there is some of the deepest and most intelligent writing to be found. I wish I could be like you. Are we still pregnant and knitting together? George, we share the love of the greatest thing to ever hit mankind, Wham! WAKE ME UP BEFORE YOU GO GO. Sigh, I love you and you are also one of the funniest people I have ever known. You have a serious side too though, and I love that. Let's go prance on the beach together.
Karolina: I miss you so much we are both hardly ever on at the same time. I think we met by singing spice girls to one another and viva forever will ALWAYS have a special place in my heart for you. I miss your epic comments. Sob I just miss you. We became so close after just a few hours and I remember the long conversations we had about everything ridiculous. We are both insomniacs I think. I love you so much and I miss you and this year would not have been the same without you. Please have Pharrell's babies.
So I am a little late but is that really something new?
I could talk about the past year but do I really want to go into it? I've had my fair share of relationships but I can't seem to hold a man down for long but that's okay. I've had my fair share of friendships and enemies, but there's no one I really harbor any bad feelings for. I've been through roommate after roommate but I love all of them for their own reasons. Now I live with someone who claims only to be half a poof but we all know that isn't true. In the time I've been here, my career has gone from nonexistent to semiexistent. When I first got here, no one knew who I was save for a few die hard OC and American Idol fans. Now, no one knows who I am still but I have quite a bit of modelling under my belt. I've decided to give up acting for the time being in pursuit of modelling, but you can still catch my movie Abominable in theaters in January. Be quick or you might miss it.
Hahaha I almost forgot about the whole part where I only ever signed on drunk and developed a reputation as MBP's alcoholic. Remember when I won Are You Ever Sober? I'm surprised I was ever sober enough to realize it.
I like to think that I've grown some since I got here; I was incredibly naive at first. I think I still was for another six months afterwards. I had my eyes opened but I don't think looking back on it that I'd want anything to be changed. I like where I am now. I could go on and on about all the people that mean the world to me but I know I would accidentally leave someone out and feelings would get stepped on. There are too many of you right now to even count and I think I have too much love in my heart for people, but there are a few that have been there since the beginning. Two have left me (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE) but not really and one hangs in limbo and I can't bring myself to talk about him BECAUSE IT STILL HURTS JAY HERNANDEZ. Sanoe, you have been my rock ever since the beginning and I can't tell you how much that means to me. There is so much more I have to say but I pretty much wrote that in something else that I still owe you and I promise I will post one day when I don't feel so stupid over it. I love you I love you I love you I love you a million times over. Ashley, where do I even begin? Haha no I am not talking to myself. You are more like a sister to me than anyone ever has been. I miss the days when we lived together and ate ice cream in the fort while watching the Apprentice and planning out our strippercize videos. You snuck me into NYU and I brought you donuts and we would throw parties with jello shots and people passing out everywhere. We had our issues but here we are still going strong and I love you more than there are words to say. Remember before we were friends? Neither do I.
Like I said, there are too many of you that I love (god I wish I hated more people it would make me a much more interesting person) right now to say something to all of you and I hate posts like that anyways. Chances are you know it all anyways. If I am still here in another year's time, someone please hack me and delete this piece of shit. Now who wants to chug some absolut vodka with me???
Okay so in talking to a few people, I realized that I really wasn't happy with this and I did leave a few things out.
Brittnay Snoho: You are the cutest thing ever and you need to stop disappearing so much. I love you like whoa and I don't even remember how we first met but it feels like it was yeaaaaaaaaars and yeeeeeears ago. You are my favorite stoner partner/jello shot addict. Remember those days? I miss them.
Jared: Where do I start with this one? You were my first real relationship here, my first love here. We started off in a rough situation and we ended in a rough situation, but in between, it wasn't too bad. We could be pretty mean to each other but we never meant it and you could be pretty nice when you tried. Haha cobwebs. I remember torturing Ashley with that thing that has to do with pigs and the boom boom room, and tiptoeing around Matt and Sanoe when we went there for Christmas. Remember when you, me, Jay, Ashley and MK all used to live in NY and throw parties with jello shots and fight over the fort and the floor. Ashley used to cornrow your hair and I would draw on you when you passed out drunk. Can I yell about your beard one more time? All joking aside, we had our differences for awhile but I'm glad we worked everything out because you are like one of my best friends.
Janeaners and George: You two are probably my favorite couple. I should write you your own things because you both mean a lot to me but OOPS I am pretty damn lazy. Janeane, you are probably one of the funniest people I have ever met and getting to know you this year has been amazing even though you disappeared there for awhile. You are so fucking hilarious yet in your journal there is some of the deepest and most intelligent writing to be found. I wish I could be like you. Are we still pregnant and knitting together? George, we share the love of the greatest thing to ever hit mankind, Wham! WAKE ME UP BEFORE YOU GO GO. Sigh, I love you and you are also one of the funniest people I have ever known. You have a serious side too though, and I love that. Let's go prance on the beach together.
Karolina: I miss you so much we are both hardly ever on at the same time. I think we met by singing spice girls to one another and viva forever will ALWAYS have a special place in my heart for you. I miss your epic comments. Sob I just miss you. We became so close after just a few hours and I remember the long conversations we had about everything ridiculous. We are both insomniacs I think. I love you so much and I miss you and this year would not have been the same without you. Please have Pharrell's babies.