I'm so over with everything...

[ashleyann]

I just can't fake it anymore, I'm not happy or content with almost anything in my life. Which, I suppose is normal for a teenager, but I not used to it. I'm all of a sudden insecure about everything little thing, things I never thought twice about before. Unimportant things like make up, I honestly bought over the last year maybe 40 dollar's in

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patience dear ;)

[flippincrazy]

Ashley, just be patient with some stuff. You're lovely, even though you don't think you are. You're more together than most people your age... you're prettier than so many other people. So what if you're a little overweight, you're still beautiful. Nobody's ever happy or content with their lives, thats what makes people better. Its the people that do something with their discontent that are the great people with their stuff together. Strive to make things better... don't be upset because they aren't already better. They have to be bad before they can be good. And at least you aren't so prideful like some of us that you can't see what your problems are... you know what needs to be fixed, all you have to do is fix them, which takes time... but everybody knows that, so don't worry about it. You're lovely, and great and awesome and everything... don't worry. We haven't talked in a long time, but I still think thats the way you are, some things dn't change much

Thank you.

[ashleyann]

Thank you, Josiah for always being there for me, even when I don't realize it and sometimes when I don't want you to be. I wrote that entry kinda wanting someone who cared about me to read it and tell me what I knew, but didn't want to believe, but more so I just wanted to see what I was thinking and I'd hope I'd forget it, not needing any help. (That's the hardest thing for me right now. ) I had forgotten I had given it to you or Mike (though, his kinda distracted right now, anyway) I'm not used to being insecure and weak, not that I was all always the strongest person, I just never really cared about anything like hair, clothes or make-up. And when I pretend to, you were always there for me, never discouraging but sometimes laughing