I can't believe I was perfectly fine with taking such a risk.  I mean, not only did I agree to having everybody over, but I wasn't stressed out at ALL about my dad coming home.  In fact, he came home a couple hours earlier than I expected, and I really didn't even care.  I avoided looking at him, but really... he just said he would get out of our ( Read more... )

It's officially college when you get together with a high school friend you haven't seen in years over coffee ( Read more... )

How was everybody's Christmas ( Read more... )

I don't want to let anybody down, but I'm really nervous about asking my cousin.  Cousin could tell parents, parents could tell dad.  Dad knowing?  BAD.

But the potential fun?  Definitely worth it.

So, will I do it?

Yes, most likely. 

I miss him.

If I miss him so much, why can't I go back?

I wish things were that simple.

But they aren't.

They won't ever be.

I need more new music.

So I'm in Ithaca... sick.  I feel awful because, you guessed it!, I pretty much killed Brian- boy with no immune system.  I did clean his room though... and by room I mean apartment.  I never thought I could survive such an undertaking.  Not to say it's perfect... I haven't had a chance to vacuum... but it's about a million times better.  Not an ( Read more... )

I hate waiting.  It's like being a kid on Christmas Eve... you just can't wait until the morning.  Only, I'm almost 20 and it isn't Christmas that I'm going nuts waiting for.  And it's not out of excitement that I can't sleep.  It's boredom's fault that I can't wait.  I just want to get out of here to be somewhere else.  I'm too bored.  Way too ( Read more... )

I"m so silly.  I'm pretty sure I'm really NOT retarded.  I don't know why I was in SUCH a bad mood last night.  I mean, I understand why I started being in a bad mood (Karyn was mad at me and I don't react well to people I care about being mad at me)... and my bad mood was just prolonged by Brian's asshole ways (partially kidding!)... Now that I'm ( Read more... )

I was so so so ridiculously happy ( Read more... )