when worst comes to first my peoples come first

i involved myself with a black heart ( Read more... )

to hate my fate more than this
to put my faith in one kiss
the death of my sanity is amiss

life flows through death
my mind hopes for less
holding the moment...........

ready to give up, give in
a woman surrounded by sin
hopes of renewal

pointless obsession
projected perversion
pointless distraction

i float about in this quasi world
entwined in a quasi relationship
killing my mind, line by line
eating keyboards of gluttony
they consume my thoughts nightly
rejurgitate them into idiocy daily
flung onto the minds of laypeople
the time goes on.......ever going on
leading to the inevitable....
what is she?death.....or life......
ho or wife?

i sit stale and stark raving
still craving sex and the necks
of those without texts of bad checks
neverthelessismorethenweeverhadinscore
hate the past
alive at last
sway
away we go
life is death
more is less
held to her breast
confusion at best
collusion with the rest
the crazed never sleep
the perverse always creep

wow......its been a while...

this thing has taken the shape of a book I can't burn......

and I appreciate its perserverance

I'm keeping this thing running, but I dont know for how much longer.....

I need to move, gravity is my only hinderance....

seems as tho everything I wish for in here happens......but to extreme!!!

I asked for a job and money......got them both, but now I work 6 days a week.....searching for understanding with my girl......got it and then some.....

hmmmm..........I WANT TO OWN A SMALL ISLAND AND LIVE UNTIL I'M 100!

i hate this fucking thing