I was looking through all my old entries in LJ, and came across a comment from you, followed the link here, and part of your post really struck a chord, I guess.
"I'm confused about some things though. I'm feeling bored, that I don't do anything, that I don't know anyone, that I don't matter in the grand scope of things. I was playing World of Warcraft last night like I ususally do and was just to antsy to move. I had to get out of it - and do something, with someone new. Told John that I was logging off, and got dressed. Dressed to the nines. 5'' heels. To do what? Sleep.
I fell asleep all dolled up and woke up with my make-up down my face. Why didn't I go anywhere? Why didn't I have the courage?
I need to find a way to break this vicious cycle because I feel I am losing myself, and dying inside.I can relate to a lot of that. I hate the cycle of routine and lack of change and progression, especially when the current state of being is an unhappy one
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How dare you quit WoW though? I feel like it is sometimes my only connection to the real world -- as strange as that sounds. I guess meeting people from game in real life counts somewhat as having found entertainment.
I've been breaking the cycle, however I think some of us are damned to fall into new cycles almost like clockwork. But, I think I know how to break them now and find happiness -- which is all that should really matter. :]
I had a lot of fun playing WoW, and other MMORPG's prior to it, but I just kept watching myself spend so much time playing it (with friends, usually)...time I'd rather spend making music, going out with friends or making new ones, etc.
I hope you find happiness. It's good to hear from you. I sometimes wonder what became of people I no longer keep in contact with.
I miss the long self analytical conversations we used to have for hours online. I even miss that virus you sent me the last time we talked. Give me a call sometime... 786 449 9340.
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I love you, Monica. ♥
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"I'm confused about some things though. I'm feeling bored, that I don't do anything, that I don't know anyone, that I don't matter in the grand scope of things. I was playing World of Warcraft last night like I ususally do and was just to antsy to move. I had to get out of it - and do something, with someone new. Told John that I was logging off, and got dressed. Dressed to the nines. 5'' heels. To do what? Sleep.
I fell asleep all dolled up and woke up with my make-up down my face. Why didn't I go anywhere? Why didn't I have the courage?
I need to find a way to break this vicious cycle because I feel I am losing myself, and dying inside.I can relate to a lot of that. I hate the cycle of routine and lack of change and progression, especially when the current state of being is an unhappy one ( ... )
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How dare you quit WoW though? I feel like it is sometimes my only connection to the real world -- as strange as that sounds. I guess meeting people from game in real life counts somewhat as having found entertainment.
I've been breaking the cycle, however I think some of us are damned to fall into new cycles almost like clockwork. But, I think I know how to break them now and find happiness -- which is all that should really matter. :]
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I hope you find happiness. It's good to hear from you. I sometimes wonder what became of people I no longer keep in contact with.
Don't be a stranger unless you want to.
Damon
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miamiexp.com it's for the discussion of art, music and more in south fl
i found your lj through s. fl goth
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