You make me so nervous ( Read more... )

Falling in love is the worst thing a woman can do. All your time comes swept up in this person, and you notice how slowly you’ve abandoned all your ambitions, all your dreams, and your career. You want to spend more time with him, more than you want to spend time building your empire. It’s a bitter sweet trade off ( Read more... )

I've been bled dry from all angles now ( Read more... )

It seems I've been everything but a woman lately, and I kind of miss it. I've been a housekeeper, a CEO, a control freak, an employee, an annoyance, and God knows what else - but certainly not a woman ( Read more... )

Pieces of me are still left in all of you ( Read more... )

{ But if I can't swim after 40 days ( Read more... )

Wasn't I the fool to think I was through with you? Yet after all these years you still send your demons after me. I write this in anger for once, not in my usual self loathing. Fuck you. Fuck you. And fuck you especially. I'm tired of the memories of you ruining my life. I am sick of your voice, I am sick of your presence, I am sick of your control ( Read more... )

I have this strange sinking feeling...

I had to have been driving near 90, the air was so low my skin was frostbitten and blue. I feel so black and white. I feel out of control and loving/hating it. Things have now gone beyond my control - my vices are slowly fleeting ( and I am scared to death ) ; my guards are being let down ( Read more... )

I spent my birthday in the most beautiful haze ( Read more... )