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[aslan_loyal]

It's just so random that I get upset about people anymore, but I am right now.  Sometimes I'm so unsure who my friends really are.  Little things make me realize I may not be as close to people as I thought, and I wonder if it's them or me.  Of course I think that it's me most of the time.  I'm not really sure why either.  I just get that way.

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[g0rge0us_demise]

Aww... I'm just down the street if you need to talk. It was really good to see you today. I seem to be in the same place. Clinging to things that seem familiar, because there are so many changes lately. I'm here if you need to talk. Or text. :) ♥

[aslan_loyal]

Thanks! I had fun, too. Maybe we can just throw out last year and start our friendship over.

[reila]

What in the world happened? When I got finished texting you seemed like you were ok.

Why do you let things get to you so much? I don't mean that in a negative way, but you've got to know that so many people truly and geniunely do love you. For you. For who you are, not what you could be. You have to realize that. I don't think you really believe that deep in your heart, because otherwise you wouldn't get plagued so much and so easily with doubts. Doubting is human, I'm not saying it's wrong, but I just don't think it's ok to the extent you do.

And sometimes, when I think I really know what is going on with you, it turns out, I don't think I ever will. No matter how much you talk to me, it makes me realize there is a lot that I don't know about you. =| And that's not bad, it's just... weird. I suppose. I just don't think you talk to me like you used to. In the past, you would've called me or texted me about this. Do you think that I wouldn't listen anymore? I don't know.

[aslan_loyal]

Well, actually I would've called. Seriously. I decided to write it in LJ though because I'm a writer, as you know, and express myself better here than when I talk. I also knew you'd read this. :) Anyways... yeah... I know I need to stop doubting. I'm just not sure how. It's almost like a habit. I'm just so used to it that it's what I fall back on. Like, it's easier to think that I'm worthless than it is to think that someone's missing out on a great friendship they could have with me.

[bungeehair]

Hi, I found you through spear_britney...I really like your journal and appreciate your raw honesty. I could relate to this post on so many levels. I'd like to add you if that's okay :)

[aslan_loyal]

Wow! I'm honored. :) You're more than welcome to friend me!

[bungeehair]

Thank you so much...you may feel free to friend me back if the mood strikes you as well :)

[aslan_loyal]

Well, of course. LOL