Going AWOL ...
Hey, peeps. I'm not going to be around much for a while ...
As some of you guys know, I'm bipolar. Usually, I'm pretty much ok and I have things under control, but for the past month, it's like I've been running on auto-pilot (thanks mostly to me currently being in between meds).
Anyway, last week I hit an extreme low, bad enough that I ended up at my sister's place because my family was afraid of leaving me alone, at least for the time being. I'm ok now, but emotionally ... the smallest things seem to set me off, I have a very hard time focusing on much of anything, and my first reaction to anything is to cry. Overall, I feel an awful lot like hammered poo.
This couldn't have happened at a worst time for me -- I'm starting classes again next Friday and I have a trip to Canada in October, but the way I'm feeling right now, it all seems surreal and far away and I honestly don't feel up to any of it. I need to take some time for myself, and am still in the process of being set up with a permanent councelor and a new set of meds. I'm not crazy about the pills (heh), but they are necessary. Without them, my moods are a crapshoot and I don't have a lot of control over the things I do or the way I feel. It feels like my brain is doing double-time in the wrong direction, and I need to concentrate on leveling myself back out.
I'm not sure how long I'm going to be AWOL, but I hope you guys understand. If you could include me in your prayers or send a mess of good vibes my way, I'd appreciate it more than I can say.
To all my fandom gals out there, keep on keepin' on. All of your contributions to teh wacky world of fandom make me happy, and help keep me sane. All my love to all you freaky people, keep doing what you do best, and I'll see you soon *HUGS*
As some of you guys know, I'm bipolar. Usually, I'm pretty much ok and I have things under control, but for the past month, it's like I've been running on auto-pilot (thanks mostly to me currently being in between meds).
Anyway, last week I hit an extreme low, bad enough that I ended up at my sister's place because my family was afraid of leaving me alone, at least for the time being. I'm ok now, but emotionally ... the smallest things seem to set me off, I have a very hard time focusing on much of anything, and my first reaction to anything is to cry. Overall, I feel an awful lot like hammered poo.
This couldn't have happened at a worst time for me -- I'm starting classes again next Friday and I have a trip to Canada in October, but the way I'm feeling right now, it all seems surreal and far away and I honestly don't feel up to any of it. I need to take some time for myself, and am still in the process of being set up with a permanent councelor and a new set of meds. I'm not crazy about the pills (heh), but they are necessary. Without them, my moods are a crapshoot and I don't have a lot of control over the things I do or the way I feel. It feels like my brain is doing double-time in the wrong direction, and I need to concentrate on leveling myself back out.
I'm not sure how long I'm going to be AWOL, but I hope you guys understand. If you could include me in your prayers or send a mess of good vibes my way, I'd appreciate it more than I can say.
To all my fandom gals out there, keep on keepin' on. All of your contributions to teh wacky world of fandom make me happy, and help keep me sane. All my love to all you freaky people, keep doing what you do best, and I'll see you soon *HUGS*