7:40 am. One paper down, one to go. Isn't college grand?

I think I just failed my American Lit final. :( WHY CAN'T THIS TORTURE BE OVER WITH ALREADY?? One more week...

Did you know that you get drunker by drinking beer through a straw? I guess you learn something new every day!

So yeah, it's official. No more shit hole Rider after this next week ever again! My mom called me today and told me that I was accepted to Stockton, which is a huge relief. As of now, I'll be living at home and commuting there, which I feel I will like a whole lot more than lviing in a dorm. I really like living on my own, but i hate living in ( Read more... )

I think i need some help...

I need a fucking drink.

Nothing like fire drills at 3 am especially when you've just about fallen asleep finally. Someone kill me.

There's so much more I want to say, but I just can't bring myself to do it. What difference will it make anyway? Sigh...

Have you ever felt like you're just nonexistent; as though you don't even matter? That the sole existence of your being is to suffer from pain and loneliness? That no matter how hard you try, to just be shrugged off by almost everyone? I'm honestly at a loss for what to do. It seems the only way to alleviate these feelings is to drink them away ( Read more... )

I hate feeling like I'm not good enough for anyone. It seems as though I'm always second rate. All I've ever done was care and want to help, but it seems I'm not even good enough for that. It's been a long time since I've received anything positive in my life. Am I really that bad? I just don't know anymore. This is loneliest I've been and ( Read more... )