so im in a better place in my life. i feel good about my self, my family and where we are going in life. we are out of the army soon, im thankful for that.  yay civilian world. im trying to think of how we can cram travelling europe into such a short time, but its been done before im sure. we will be back in NY in june, some of that time will be ( Read more... )

and i think right now im kind of thankful for that. i could blog on myspace, but the less people that see this, the better. im going through a hard time in my life. and due to the time difference, no one to talk to right now. i just want to type it out maybe getting my feelings out will help me feel better about everything, about my life. dont ask ( Read more... )

hey, so its been well over a year since i last used this thing.  things are OK in my life.  im getting ready to go back to our home in germany.  im so thankful that my summer has been filled with the people that matter most to me at this difficult time in my life.  ive grown as a person these last few months. i had alot of time to reflect on who i ( Read more... )

shits supposed to be getting easier. thats a fucking joke. everything is ridiculous right now. i feel like my life is upside down and im struggling to stay above the water. im not to sure whats going on. i feel like drinking, and smoking. and being bad. like breaking things. or beating someone one. i think i just need a more mature way of ( Read more... )

so im actually growing up i think. crazy i know. i miss matt so damn much. i cant wait to see him. doubt ill leave! ill be staying there for good very soon actually=] him being in germany is getting really difficult for me. we talk less and less everyday. totally different time frame. i dont know what hes doing, where hes going or anyone hes with. ( Read more... )

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lifes good. i love my boy<33 hes so sexy. i work everyday and school everyday. so im tired alot. thats all.

hahah jr prom effin rocked

somedays are so hard for me. other pass by like any other.
somedays i cry and cry and cry
i dont like those days
i dont like today.

can someone say zero motivation?

im starting to feel better for those of you that know what ive been going through, if you dont know, dont ask. anyway today im going to hang out with my little cousins bake some brownies and ima stay for dinner. then im going to the range with my dad, i havent been there in a while. i miss it bad. whever i come back from seeing matt i feel like im ( Read more... )