nightmares suck. especially stupid ones.
i woke up to a bad dream just a short while ago, and i'm still awake.
i'm trying to remember it all, but a lot happened so fast that i dont think i could even describe it.
i've had previous dreams where i was in a boston multi-storied library, and i had a little place all to myself on the 4th floor. and suddenly i was there, and it was comfortable, with cushions and those long, flat couch things, with pillows. i was reading a book, trying to get comfortable. i was all alone, but some asian girl came in and had an attitude problem. i was just getting negative vibes. i got up to get a drink from a vending machine, but she beat me to it, so i felt like she got angry at me for "copying her" and when i turned around my couch was gone- she had dragged it off to another room all for herself. a lot of things happened quickly, and then i was in the boston charrette store, even though it's been closed for years. there was a big meeting going on there, with tons of workers as if they were setting up to reopen the store and getting things ready. then aisles started to fall over on people and i helped catch them and put them back upright. mike duvall was there trying to organize the whole thing. then suddenly i was on my way back to the woburn store with this girl and guy who both used to work there and used to have a thing for each other. i didn't know them, but we got a ride from steve feinstien, which now that i think about it, is hillarious :D he was driving this weird little truck thing that kinda reminds me of the one that tifa barret and aeris drove during the crazy motorcycle chace in ff7. (yeah i know, i'm so weird and i have ff7 on the brain lately). and then as we were pulling up to the store, we pulled into some sort of indoor loading dock with a hallway, and when steve drove it to the end of the hallway a bunch of boxes came down on him and hit him in the head. he looked seriously injured and couldn't move, and i was scared so i ran inside to find someone to help. when i got into the store, the guy and girl who came with me were in the back somewhere arguing, lisa lombardini was calling me to the register to help her with a long line of customers, and there was some bitchy woman screaming and throwing a fit in the middle of the store. i didnt have much of a choice- she saw me and went straight at me, at first complaining that there was no one on the floor helping her, and then she went on about things that i cant even remember. mike duvall showed up in the background but the woman went on and on at me, saying the nastiest possible things she could until it got to the point where i couldnt take it anymore and started to angrilly argue back. i couldnt believe what i was saying (and i cant remember the conversation now- but it was harcore insults) and then we got into a fistfight. all i could think of was losing my job, and hating that the woman was so much taller than me, because i wanted to hit her so badly but she was just out of reach and it seemed like nothing i did even phased her. plus poor steve was in the back needing medical assistance and the bitch wouldn't let me leave because she didn't believe me!
and then i woke up. lindsay was next to me- i had fallen asleep in bed with her by accident again. i forgot that i left nate rambling on about something online, and to take my pill, and that i would call alan back. in fact, i didnt even have my phone, and if i slept through the night, my phone alarm wouldnt have woken me in time in the morning for work. but now i'm wide awake and talking to kim online, even though she's right upstairs.
i have this crazy angry feeling lingering on from when i awoke from that dream...but these new songs i got off limewire are helping to settle my anxiety. and something else :)
alan is coming back in may after he gets out of college, and we're gonna celebrate our birthdays together. it's gonna be great :)
i'm trying to remember it all, but a lot happened so fast that i dont think i could even describe it.
i've had previous dreams where i was in a boston multi-storied library, and i had a little place all to myself on the 4th floor. and suddenly i was there, and it was comfortable, with cushions and those long, flat couch things, with pillows. i was reading a book, trying to get comfortable. i was all alone, but some asian girl came in and had an attitude problem. i was just getting negative vibes. i got up to get a drink from a vending machine, but she beat me to it, so i felt like she got angry at me for "copying her" and when i turned around my couch was gone- she had dragged it off to another room all for herself. a lot of things happened quickly, and then i was in the boston charrette store, even though it's been closed for years. there was a big meeting going on there, with tons of workers as if they were setting up to reopen the store and getting things ready. then aisles started to fall over on people and i helped catch them and put them back upright. mike duvall was there trying to organize the whole thing. then suddenly i was on my way back to the woburn store with this girl and guy who both used to work there and used to have a thing for each other. i didn't know them, but we got a ride from steve feinstien, which now that i think about it, is hillarious :D he was driving this weird little truck thing that kinda reminds me of the one that tifa barret and aeris drove during the crazy motorcycle chace in ff7. (yeah i know, i'm so weird and i have ff7 on the brain lately). and then as we were pulling up to the store, we pulled into some sort of indoor loading dock with a hallway, and when steve drove it to the end of the hallway a bunch of boxes came down on him and hit him in the head. he looked seriously injured and couldn't move, and i was scared so i ran inside to find someone to help. when i got into the store, the guy and girl who came with me were in the back somewhere arguing, lisa lombardini was calling me to the register to help her with a long line of customers, and there was some bitchy woman screaming and throwing a fit in the middle of the store. i didnt have much of a choice- she saw me and went straight at me, at first complaining that there was no one on the floor helping her, and then she went on about things that i cant even remember. mike duvall showed up in the background but the woman went on and on at me, saying the nastiest possible things she could until it got to the point where i couldnt take it anymore and started to angrilly argue back. i couldnt believe what i was saying (and i cant remember the conversation now- but it was harcore insults) and then we got into a fistfight. all i could think of was losing my job, and hating that the woman was so much taller than me, because i wanted to hit her so badly but she was just out of reach and it seemed like nothing i did even phased her. plus poor steve was in the back needing medical assistance and the bitch wouldn't let me leave because she didn't believe me!
and then i woke up. lindsay was next to me- i had fallen asleep in bed with her by accident again. i forgot that i left nate rambling on about something online, and to take my pill, and that i would call alan back. in fact, i didnt even have my phone, and if i slept through the night, my phone alarm wouldnt have woken me in time in the morning for work. but now i'm wide awake and talking to kim online, even though she's right upstairs.
i have this crazy angry feeling lingering on from when i awoke from that dream...but these new songs i got off limewire are helping to settle my anxiety. and something else :)
alan is coming back in may after he gets out of college, and we're gonna celebrate our birthdays together. it's gonna be great :)