I'm really sad ( Read more... )

A spattering of writings, my heart has provided.... random thoughts. Tangents. Rambling. This is me. This is who I've always been. This is, God willing, the same fucked up- ever loving- broken girl (no no.. young woman) I'll be until the day I die. I don't want to be as dirty as the rest. I don't want my mind or heart clouded like yours have become ( Read more... )

I am soooo sick and tired of trying to be this perky, upbeat, optimistic, life's okay, happy go lucky person. I'm trying to convince myself that life doesn't suck, right now. I'm trying to see the silver lining. But, the fact of the matter is.... that's bullshit ( Read more... )

Fuck.

... that about covers it.

*grin* Life goes on, does it not? It's amazing how little things can devastate and torment at the time.... but in the scope of life, they're a meaningless. I'm not, by nature, a dramatic person... but I sure am good and finding myself in the middle of it. I wonder if it's solely because I care "too much" or if there's more to it. Maybe I secretly ( Read more... )

Well, my birthday was a blast... I had such a good day. I had tons of friends (a very ecclectic group of them, actually) show up at B dubs to celebrate with me. I had three long beaches, a buffalo zoo, and a "piece of ass" *grin* and only had to buy two of my own drinks :) That was nice! Then, Mike and I had a really good evening together. It ( Read more... )

I've been up and down for the past month... today is an up day, for sure. I'm done with the "down"...... I hope ( Read more... )

This is my rant. I'm broken. I'm beaten. I'm infuriated!! I've been living a blatant lie ( Read more... )

I thought that I knew love-- and, in a sense, I did. I knew love and I knew the depth to which that love could run.... "my love runs deep".... but I never knew this kind of love or understood the peace that this love can bring- until now- until I closed my eyes and asked God to show me- until I opened my hands and my heart and gave all that there ( Read more... )

My Birthday Is In TEEEEEEEEEEEEEN DAYS!!!!!! Big ole 20.....

w00t!!

....... carry on.