LJ Idol Home Game: When You Pray, move your feet

[astraevirgo]

I reside in my head. Or perhaps I float as a mind above my body, pretending that my body -- it's physical reactions to emotion, it's ability to know in ways that my mind can't -- I pretend that my body doesn't exist.

I struggle mightily with the belief that I'm worthy. Believing that someone will hire me. Believing that I am a good parent to my

Comments

[asillia]

Have you talked about going on the more powerful medicine again? Sometimes people need that, and it has nothing to do with your coping abilities.

[astraevirgo]

It was meant as a short-term drug to boost me out of the depths. It's associated with heart disease long-term. And also weight gain, which I have experienced. It's probably better for my long-term health to be off it, though healing might seem to be slowed.