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dorama
It never seems to end. This whole unhappiness cycle with Bennington. I think that I realized what makes me hate it so much. My mom, never wanted me to go there in the first place. She hates it. Therefore, I, in turn, must put up with the constant insistance to change schools. I understand this hatred though. Let me tell you, Bennington did not ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
Ok, so I wrote this entry yesterday and it got fucked up when I tried doing an Lj-cut, so I'm like grr, not really wanting to write it all again, but you know what? It's important so I'm going to suck it up. :P ( Read more... ) -
Other's success
Is it wrong for me to feel jealous when someone succeeds in their dreams, when we share the same dream? This girl is 19 (my age)...she's planning her trip to Korea to become a singer. She's from England and she's been on the news all over england because of her videos she posted on youtube. She also attracted the attention of the company who ( Read more... ) -
All white
Firstly. (is that a word? it sounds funny.) I'm sorry about my last post. I really didn't want people to think I was going to kill myself, because that was not the point of the post. I just feel like some people don't care about me. I also have a hard time expressing myself to people I care about when all I want to do is just cling to them. It's ( Read more... ) -
Live vs. Death
I always have to repeat myself to my mom. I called her while I was out at lunch, like I always do and she went on to rag on me about how I dont have enough hours for FWT when I told her about how we fixed it YESTERDAY. Sometimes I wish I lived elsewhere and not with her. I want to live in my own place...in Korea or Japan. I need to start brushing ( Read more... ) -
Nearly perfect day
So. Today while I was out at lunch at Starbucks, I had the urge to write a journal entry. Well, I didn't have my computer, so I used my notebook to write down what I wanted to say. It's been a long time since I've felt the urge to write. It felt good. Exhilarating. So I wrote down about how my day was and how wonderful it was. The one thing that ( Read more... ) -
Shineless
So I auditioned for an online collaboration and there were alot of people that tried out, I mean like a ton and I didn't get the part I wanted. In fact, I didn't get a part at all. I shouldn't expect to always be able to get a part. I lost it to someone who sang mucho better than I did anyway. I've never been told I have an amazing voice or ( Read more... ) -
A Cruel Life.
How foolish it was for me to think I could actually record songs and such. It's all a joke. Wasting money on programs that cost over $300 just to record some damn clips and mix them is utterly ridiculous. What is even more ridiculous is when you spend money on a computer to record on and it doesn't even work with the microphone properly, because ( Read more... ) -
It all doesn't feel like it.
I don't know where home is anymore. I finally realized why I decided to go to school 4 hours away. Oh yes. It's very clear to me now. My mom fell down the stairs while carrying my clumsy, yet empty suitcase down into the basement. She then proceeded to yell at me, saying "All you care about is your blood drives and your stupid friends. What about ( Read more... ) -
So this is what its like when the world is asleep and your not.
All nighters are so taxing. But I'm totally pulling one right now. I don't even have everything done yet. I'm so grr. And just in case I can't find any listening assignments I did whn I had my music history class, sophomore year of high school, then I need to have some back ups. I think maybe it would be a good idea for me to at least get an hour ( Read more... )