my heart hurts so much. i don't sleep. i don't eat. i actually enjoy being at work because it distracts me from the truth. but even there, everyone knows him. they still check up on me, ask me if i'm okay. i say i am but i'm not. no no no no nno no no no i'm not. i just want to sit in my room and cry for a month ( Read more... )

panic attacks are fun!

I just went to my cabin every night and wrote about the day so it's not the most organized but hey, wanted to write it all before i forgot ( Read more... )

my head hurts so much
i probably shouldn't be on the computer but i'm upset and have nothing else to do right now.
well. i have homework but you know what, i can't think straight right now.
i've calmed down a lot. what upset me isn't as bad as it could've been.

i have a very rapid change of emotions. and now i'm just tired.

i saw blue man group last night

i didn't want it to end

when your parents decide to get a divorce you start to question everything. everything from your own relationships with friends, family, loved ones. you even fucking question the parenting your mother and father have done. i really can't explain what's going on in my head right now. a lot of it makes me cry when i'm alone. which isn't often, mostly ( Read more... )

i don't know what i want anymore

for your comments. oddly enough they do help a bit ( Read more... )

While returning to New York from Bermuda this afternoon, Norwegian Crown experienced a technical issue with the ship's starboard propeller shaft. While this has affected the speed of the ship, it has had no impact whatsoever on the safe operation of the vessel ( Read more... )

sometimes (usually when i'm on the rag, sorry for tmi)
i just don't know... my brain just starts saying, hey! stop trusting!
and it makes me cry