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atavism

So...

Jul 03, 2005 09:18

This is summer? What happened to all our lists of things to do? What happened to all our ambitions? Once again quietly forgotten? Or did I kill them all? What happened to the wild sense of freedom we thought we'd have? But most of all, what happened to us? It seems there is no "us" any longer. All the friends you thought were yours grant you no ( Read more... )

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laughinggnome July 3 2005, 10:49:20 UTC

hey, i know how it feels. but dont think that i no longer want to hang out with you just because i dont call often, i dont call anyone often and thats just the way i am because i always assume that people would call me if they wanted to hang out so if they dont then they're either busy, dont want to, or they're working. my reason for never calling people is simple...i feel annoying. and i guess that isnt the case with you but no matter how inviting the person is i still never catch on. all in all, i do love you very much and i do enjoy your company...but theres so many things going on right now that make hanging out not that simple. what with joe, work, transportation etc. but anyway, if this entry is directed towards me (which i assme it is) i believe that its full of false accusations, these are your thoughts and they aren't proven facts...so i wouldnt worry about it. no one is against you.

atavism July 3 2005, 11:45:49 UTC

its not directed to you as much as our whole group of "girl friends". and basically everyone everywhere. and you are actually someone i still believe in.

i dont know maybe ill just take this off. i just wanted to vent.

laughinggnome July 3 2005, 13:56:19 UTC

yeah, well i'm glad you still believe in me.

btw, how did that bjork movie end?
(i've watched it up until the point where she finally meets with the eye doctor)

oh_velouria July 3 2005, 12:42:08 UTC

You should come up to Portland and chill with me.

atavism July 3 2005, 13:15:37 UTC

I just might... except I can't drive so we'll see.

flashlight___ July 3 2005, 13:25:13 UTC

Oh dearie, I just want you to be happy.

treehouse_lover July 3 2005, 13:31:46 UTC

why can't you drive down love? i'll come pick u up and we'll go somewhere

papapeanuts87 July 3 2005, 15:57:04 UTC

I love you.

blood4bleeding July 4 2005, 15:44:40 UTC

All the friends you thought were yours grant you no more than a brief wave in passing. A slight acknowledgment. It's like no one even wants to talk to you unless you've got the right social aids handy for dispension.I'm getting the same vibe now too--I think it might have something to do with our age but I'm sick and tired of feeling like I have to have drugs to get someone to hang out with me. I'm sick of bartering to be with people. Everyone seems too busy and no one calls anyone anymore ( ... )

atavism July 8 2005, 20:18:03 UTC

I'm sick of the "we'll hang out soon [but in reality I'm not making plans to see you ever again]" bullshit, too.

That note you and Maddy left me at work meant so much to me. Where ever I go I will always remember you. Thanks for still believing in me after all this time and through the hostility and horribleness etc.

We can still change the state of things, however. And we should. At the very least we know that we wish the best for each other.

blood4bleeding July 10 2005, 14:07:30 UTC

I think the "hostility and horribleness" come hand in hand with the fact that we've known each other for like 3 years now and a lot changes in three years.
I'm glad you liked the note, her and I figured you would. Joe and I have brushed up on timesplitters and I look forward to many more games. IN ANY CASE I do believe the state of things are beginning to turn around, and for the better.