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[ateenagefeeling]

i feel like i'm dragging

a refrigerator

down a dirt road in hell

right now

but i will take beauty and wonder

just the same.

i guess i'm hoping the low road

will deliver some

elevated sadness.

[Blake Schwartzenbach]

[Jawbreaker]



trust me when i say that i want to hate you

i want to forget that you even exist

want to feel like you're dead to me

when,in fact,you're still everything to me

how could one person with so many needs

be almost everything you need?

i'm not entirely sure

in fact,i'm not entirely sure that i'll ever be sure

it doesn't matter anyways

you're gone

and

i'm fairly positive there's nothing i can do to get you back

[believe me,i've tried]

but for what it's worth James

wanting you as a whole is not

"too much to ask"

and wanting all of your heart is anything but "selfish"

[you fucking jerk]

i still love you

God only knows why

stop knowing me so well

there's a good reason these feelings are secret dollface

let's keep it that way

i'll speak vaguely for you so no one else understands

i'll give up this fight

when you give up this game.
♥