I think that episode affected me more than I thought it had at first.
I just want to curl up in a little ball and sleep for days, in sympathetic depression.
Drink This Well Dry (Dean/Sam, PG-13), a beautiful, sweet, hurty but healing little coda by
lyra_wing, helped a bit. It is perfect and gorgeous, but unlikely to make much sense unless you've seen "What Is and What Should Never Be."
I sort of really want to watch the episode again, but I think it might completely break me. I know I've been stressed out and fragile recently; catharsis might be good, but I don't know that I can afford it yet.
Of course, if this doesn't break me, the Season Finale probably will...