Being skinny

[athlete_ana]

I have a strong desire to be skinny again. I mean, I often have this desire, but not often quite like this. I feel like I want to make John, my ex, hurt. No matter that I left him, and that hurts him already. I want to hurt him more. I know that being unheathy and weak will hurt him. If I was below 100lbs at christmas, he would notice

Comments

[theresa913]

I get like this sometimes too...it's like trying to be healthy shows the world that you are healthy and strong and fine so sometimes you just want people to be able to see how you really feel on the inside by showing it on the outside....or sometimes it feels like the opposite..that if you can just get that much willpower and control to lose more and more that it will somehow prove something to someone. I know how you feel girl. But we have ot remember that our happiness and health is so much more worth it.

[blueigirl]

well girl, hurting yourself will do nothing to hurt others, only you. You have worked very hard to be strong, healthy and a fast runner. A man isn't worth you taking that from yourself. I hope you feel better soon and stay focused on bringing yourself up, not down to "their" (whoever that may be in life) level. Wish you the best our lil' Canadian.