I always said the once place I definately did not want to go to college was here. But unless God is playing games with my mind, I think he's telling me that here is the perfect place for me. I know I'm not supposed to hear from the other schools until . . . april, but at this point, I have well over $10,000 from the U of I. That's tuition board ( Read more... )

"Tears and fears and feeling proud to say I love you right out loud,
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds, I've looked at life that way.
But now old friends are acting strange, they shake their heads, they say that I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day."

I'm incredibly nervous right now . . . i can feel myself freaking out, I have been online for the part two hours, just . . .freaking out! In the span of a week, I found out that I was not accepted as a finalist in the Coca-Cola Scholars Foundation Scholarship, which was pretty devastating, i felt i had an incredible amount of credit under my belt ( Read more... )

I always thought that when It happened to me, I'd blame the guy 100% . . .right now, I don't know who 2 blame. It was my fault, I knew it would happen, it was her fault, she knew how I felt about him, it was his fault . . he knew how I felt about him, but they didn't care. I was in the next f*ckin' room, you have no idea how it feels to stand ( Read more... )

I've been pretty sick the past couple of days . . .an ugly flu, and now it's pretty light. It's kind of lame that like . . . no one called, except shannon last nite, but i dunno . . . I guess I don't always call my friends when they are sick ( Read more... )

Last night was the best night I've had all year . . . GIRLS NIGHT OUT!!! Liza, Carly, Jen, and I ended up going to a Delta Sigma Phi party, and kicked it. We met up with Phoebe, Sara, and Bridget there and just had a really good time. Carly danced with some boy who was so obviously atrocious, I can't believe she didn't notice. HAHA!! We went to ( Read more... )

Yesterday was my final basketball game as an Urbana Tiger . . . we lost to Danville by 20, and I couldn't do anything to stop it. I watched the game unfold before my eyes, and I knew early that we were going to lose it, but it didn't make it any better. I believed before we stepped on the court that we could win it. But . . . I never really thought ( Read more... )

I hate wavering between . . . I'm totally fine to my life sucks. And I hate that I even think I can complain, cuz in all perspective, I have a real wonderful life. I've been feeling real left out lately, just cuz kati and brande and all these people are dating sumone, so at least those two do their lil team dating stuff. And Aimee has been with ( Read more... )

I'm come to the conclusion that ( Read more... )

This week has been amazing for SOOOO many reasons ( Read more... )