the moral of this story...

[atotheshley]

is that i'm a moron.

people can never be 100% depended on. never plan your life around someone else. don't spend hundreds of dollars on plane tickets that won't be used.

people are just bodies that crumble when too heavily leaned upon.

i can't wait to go home.
...but i'm sure that too will eventually turn into a disaster.

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Comments

[sarahrae]

:(

There should be something good to say here like the good ol, "Everything happens for a reason," thing, but in all reality, even if it be true, that usually doesn't swallow to well.

You can refund your plane tickets, or atleast turn them around for different dates to different places if you need to. Airlines are SUPER FLEXIBLE!

[atotheshley]

yeah, it's all pretty much crap...even though i try to tell myself that "reason" thing often. these days words like "fate" and "destiny" all seem like excuses.

it'd be great if i could refund them, but the most i can do is cancel my flight and get credit to use on another flight.
...all when i don't feel like going anywhere.

and then, knowing my luck, he'll apologize and i'll want to take the stupid trip after all.
piffhhttt. whatever.

sorry...didn't mean to go on that long.

[sarahrae]

pppshhh.... go on as long as you want. You can always trade them for somewhere else *cough here* and if he apologizes, then he can suck it. He hurt you now, you shouldn't have to plan on him coming back after he has hurt you in any way. Misery is a dish best served cold my friend. But then again, I would probably save them until the last date that I could to exchange them in hopes that he would come back... because in all reality, most girls are just hotwired that way.

[atotheshley]

and why is that? i'm goin' in for a re-wiring. asap.

the stupid thing is that he wouldn't care either way. he won't apologize...probably thinks i owe him an apology. and i'll be weak enough to call him eventually and try to work it all out.
...just like every other damn time.
ugh. he sucks. i'm pathetic.

[xatticusx]

Ahhh. The pains we indure for the bastard that is love. I wish I were clever enough to come up with something to say that might make you feel better. I would resort to singing TaTu or Reading Rainbow but I'll have to save that for our next phone conversation. I know its no consolation but I'm right there with you. I was dating someone for 4 years. 4 freaking years of my life and then all the sudden I guess I wasn't worth it anymore. We went thought the entire 6 month cruise awesomely and then about a week before I pull in I call her to find out that she had been dating someone for 2 months. She said she was ending it and just needed
someone "there". So I have been waiting since the deployment to take leave but turns out I just had to cancel a trip to Seattle for next month. So here I am with 40 days saved and no real reason to spend it. Anyway, I hope your doing alright......or else I'd have to send you a picture of that creepy squinty eyed face. OH yes, I would.

[atotheshley]

holy buh-jeezles, you're still alive!

indeed, that love is a bastardly-bastard. and people just suck more than ever these days. and i'm so afraid of starting over. maybe that's why i cling to any sign of a little hope.
and i'm sorry that you were deceived. that's one of the worst things any one could do.

you could come take leave in missourah and we could frolick around the town, slaughtering any sign of love we see! :D

it's good to hear from you. i hope you are glorious.

[xatticusx]

Of course I'm still alive. I just....I've taken up dance. Thats why no one has heard from me for a while. I do group style crunk dance. Like in bring it on. Our group is called the "Strikeing Cobras 4 Life". My signature move is called the Rainbow Delight and man buddy is it distructive. Anyway, I definately need to come visit you. I've never been to this place called missourah you speak of or california (where your stationed right?).

[atotheshley]

right. it'd be fun and trying to show you a fun time would distract me from how crappy the world is. goddang. california peoples are RETARDED drivers. i'll be in missouri from the 2nd til the 9th. think 'bout it while you're crunk dancin'. wurd.