i hate all guys

went to the beach yesterday. that was very relaxing.it sucks that i have to work tomorrow. i have to get up sooo early! Lately josh has been getting on my nerves more and more. im just tierd of him not understanding anything i say or talk about. i wish he would just see the ways he talks to me and how angry he always gets around me. some one you " ( Read more... )

so today was an eventful day. i dont get how guys think that girl like being grabbed and shit. dont they know that there are more to us than a body? i mean please we have thoughts that are probably more intelligent than guys to begin with. Some times i wish i wasnt so good looking so that people may take me seriously. My freind came over well hes ( Read more... )

so i got home yesterday from the really really long drive. my ass got pretty sore from all the driving we had been doing. So going up there wasnt really that much fun. sure i got to see my family( well most of them) but it was so much driving and not enough staying there to make me happy. My couins on my moms side are the most cutest things you ( Read more... )

so im stting at my dads computer in a hotel room in chicago. me and the sister get the whole day and room to ourselves...so im thinking about renting a limo and riding around the city. actaully we will probably just end up at the pool being lazy which we do just as well. i kinda miss home but its nice to get away from everything for a while and ( Read more... )

so this trip im taking is the closest thing i get this summer to a vacation. yeah i get to have no fun this summer like usual. all work and no play...oh well thats life. At least i have my josh to think of. we have some days off before i start working to hang out all day together so thats nice. I just wish my parents would let me have some fun this ( Read more... )

so i just ate a ton of watermellon and now im freezing!!! wish josh was here to make me warm. oh well. i should go sit out side but my nerdy neighbors are trying to play basketball and its sad to watch. so last night was really fun..went to the movies with my josh and had a good time. i cant wait to see him tomorrow!! i hope we get to have a little ( Read more... )

so today once again josh and i got into a fight. he tried to tell me that he thinks that i dont want to hang out with him today. which is a big fat no because i always hang out with him. so he really got on my nerves and made me cry because it hurt. to think that the person you want to spend all your time with thinks you dont want to and are hiding ( Read more... )

so me and josh got in a huge fight last night...like usual i guess...but i get so frusterated!!! its like not matter how much i try to help people nothing good happens. i just seem to bring more trouble. so i've made a new plan..stop helping people and just focus on me. that way i cant mess anything up other than my own life which im pretty good at ( Read more... )

so im not going to florida after all. Josh doesnt have the money...but i think deep down i didnt want to go any way. but we will some time. So graduation is over and i dont feel and different or better.. oh well. I did get alot of money so thats good. I've been trying to keep myself busy so i dont get bored. I leave next week for a family trip. 16 ( Read more... )