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[atoyna_lilsnip]

So I don't even know what to think. Many people that aren't me are hopeful that he'll still call. I've already given up on this. If he was interested, he would have called by now. It's been over a week.

What annoys me is that when I went to sit down and do my homework before design class yesterday, he showed up over at his table of friends as per

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[fairytaledreams]

Do I need to come over there and knock some sense into someone? /angry Stella is angry for you

I'm going to hope he's just really nervous about responding and not that he's being a complete ass or I will have some choice words for this one, too, and they won't be "Nice to meet you."

/not in a very pleasant mood to begin with |D;

[atoyna_lilsnip]

I don't know. I mean... It's obvious I'm interested. I handed him my number on a fucking "Roselia" card.

I just... I don't even know. At some point it gets to stop being "Maybe he's nervous" and turns into "he's just not interested"... But then the mixed signals.

I'm trying not to let it get to me. But just once it would be nice for something like this to work out for me.

[fairytaledreams]

/punts him from across the country for you - Kinda wish I could tell the dude to grow some balls, because seriously. If he's looking at you and you've already gone out on the limb... well, the ball's in his court, or so they say. Waiting just sucks, and if it's been that long then it's kind of like ".... okay dude, I'm done waiting."

Blah... /hugs lots. I hate to say give it another week because that seems really freaking long, but giving up too early might be worse... Idk...

[atoyna_lilsnip]

I know... It's like, I dealt him the cards... He needs to do something with them now. And I don't like waiting. It's why I'm so pro-active like this in the first place. I hate the waiting game. I loathe it. I know I should give it another week... And I will. But I refuse to get my hopes up anymore.

I'm not the one who's surrounded by 5 friends at any given time. I am always either by myself or with one friend. I make myself open to contact, it's not like I set up an intimidating environment.

*clings* I just don't know. I wish he would just give me a definite answer either way.

[seolearo]

/sigh

I want to say that maybe he's just unsure if he wants to call you or not, but who knows. I just hope that someday you do find someone who'll treat you well, man or woman. You're one of the sweetest ladies I know, internet or no, and you deserve that much, at least. I'm sorry you keep getting the short end of the stick.

The only thing I might suggest is to... I don't know, stop looking so hard. I'm not saying suppress any crushes or push it out of your mind completely or anything like that, but just... don't search for it so actively? If you pause in that search for a bit, maybe you'll get what you want before you even realize what's happened. Things happen to me in that way a lot, both in regards to relationships and more mundane things, like ideas for class projects.

Again, I'm sorry this is getting to you so much. I wish I could help you out, but I dunno how. I hope things get better for you, and that boy gets the sense to call you. And if/when he does, I hope to god that he treats you right.

[atoyna_lilsnip]

I want to believe that. Oh gods, do I want to believe that. And thank you so much. That's really something I needed to hear right now.

For four years I didn't actively seek a relationship. I had my crushes, but I didn't actually do anything about them. When I started dating Stella, that was the first time in four years that I had done anything pro-actively to get into a relationship.

But I get what you're saying, and thank you....

Thank you... I'm trying to stay optimistic, but I'm such a pessimist by nature. I really appreciate everything, though.