So I might fall for the wrong guys. For some reason when I get enough guts and heart to be with someone that actually wants to be with me, I end up hurting. I don't ask for much I just want someone to be there for me, to have them give me compliments once in awhile, to say at least hi hun hope you having a great day each day, someone to accept my ( Read more... )

So I haven't written in there for a long time! I've been so busy, busy enough to lose sleep! There is not enough hours in a day and I'm finally realizing it but loving it at the same time. So here I sit at work bored off my ass and thinking hmm it's friday and what the hell I'm gonna do. This is sad this is the first Friday that I don't have ( Read more... )

Last night while I was sitting around feeling shitty my friend ricky and his girlfriend which is also my friend came over and visited me. We got to talking and I was just watching those two together and I became jealous. I thought about it over the night and then when I was suppose to be doing my homework but instead I was talking to my roommate ( Read more... )

Maybe I'm looking for a fairy tale life. Where everything is perfect and I'm as happy as I can be. I thought I had that before and now I want to keep searching for it. I'm lost and need support ( Read more... )

So lately I've been blaming everything that has been happening to me on myself. If something goes wrong I think I've done it. If someone isn't happy with me, it's because I've done it. I need to get out of the rut!

So I'm at work being bored, it sucks working friday Nights! I swear no one comes around here at 3 O'clock when it's open parking on fridays. So basically I sit here and think about things and be bored out of my mind. So right now weird and interesting things are happening. I received a small package from my mom today it was this thing to talk ( Read more... )

So I was looking back at an old comment in my journal from December 5th when I said I thought I missed someone but instead I missed the place I was always at. Well I came to more of an enlightening thing it was just the place but it was the other people too. I re read it and it clicked just like that, I remembered!! I had it all planned out what ( Read more... )

So I'm sitting here at work doing mind numbing things just thinking about things have been going on this past week. It almost seems unreal. I just can't believe the things that have happened and are going on, I feel like I should just pinch myself and realize that it's all a dream. So when I wake up to see this face I think I'm dreaming. All I ( Read more... )

If I seem sleepy it's because I am... lol! I have not been getting a lot of sleep lately but it's WELL worth it. So I'm just warning everyone if I seem like I'm not totally are here! I'm starting to not worry about how I hurt people's feelings as much because I start to care to much and it has an effect on me. I think I might be to kind. Well ( Read more... )

So I've been hanging out with those friends again. I love it I just go there and all my stress and everything just goes away I feel so relaxed and at ease. Time flys when I'm there and I lose all track of it. I see the same four walls the same people and yet it never gets old ( Read more... )