I disturb myself
Thing One.
Hard at work on the Secret Santa story and what am I writing?
Coerced consent.
What else can you call saying yes to sex to pay a self-perceived debt, to keep from escalating into a fight, to have something you wanted from someone who never wanted to give it to you before, even though for them it's all about punishment?
That's the only way I can think to describe it. I don't think it's quite dubious consent, but it's, uhm, squicky/skeevy by my standards. At best I'd describe it as drunk, angry, really rough sex with undertones of humiliation and submission kinks. It's John agreeing to sex out of guilt and then coming to Rodney carelessly hurting him, or maybe despite it (that's the best interpretation). And yet, I wrote it as hot as I know how. ~2500 words of it. Which is the disturbing thing.
Then there's the fact this is supposed to be in a Christmas exchange fic.
I've got to inflict this on someone so they can tell me I can still make John and Rodney work as a happy ending after this, because I suspect I can't.
::facepalm::
Thing Two appears to have been frightened away by the contents of my brain. This entry was originally posted at http://auburn.dreamwidth.org/225789.html. where there are
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Hard at work on the Secret Santa story and what am I writing?
Coerced consent.
What else can you call saying yes to sex to pay a self-perceived debt, to keep from escalating into a fight, to have something you wanted from someone who never wanted to give it to you before, even though for them it's all about punishment?
That's the only way I can think to describe it. I don't think it's quite dubious consent, but it's, uhm, squicky/skeevy by my standards. At best I'd describe it as drunk, angry, really rough sex with undertones of humiliation and submission kinks. It's John agreeing to sex out of guilt and then coming to Rodney carelessly hurting him, or maybe despite it (that's the best interpretation). And yet, I wrote it as hot as I know how. ~2500 words of it. Which is the disturbing thing.
Then there's the fact this is supposed to be in a Christmas exchange fic.
I've got to inflict this on someone so they can tell me I can still make John and Rodney work as a happy ending after this, because I suspect I can't.
::facepalm::
Thing Two appears to have been frightened away by the contents of my brain. This entry was originally posted at http://auburn.dreamwidth.org/225789.html. where there are
comments. Comments are enabled on all cross posted journals.