Okay, I took my couple of days to wallow in self pity.  I'm done now : )

Thanks again.

So I think I finally figured out what I want.  Yeah, it's nice to have someone to take care of you as much as you take care of them.  It's nice to have someone send you flowers for no reason every now and again.  It's nice to have someone say, "I love you," and mean it every time ( Read more... )

We've barely even started ( Read more... )

Cloudless smokeless serenity
Made perfect by its imperfections
The boiling waters sanitize the situation
Purifying the acrid taste of disappointment
Into the sweetest of sweets
Most pleasurable to the palate
A most noteworthy ideal
Housed in a maze of confusion
So many doors but only one escape
Into paradise lost

Tension and Release
Never ending cycle of life
Of suspension and resolution
Lasting days, weeks, months, years
Hours taken one minute at a time
Constantly surrounded by reminders
Of things broken and new
Of death and rebirth
Like a phoenix from the flame,
Reborn of ashes to begin again.
The tension builds.

Falling
floating
Ever doting
Upon your face
Etched with grace
But your love is a luxury
I can't afford
No matter how much
you're adored
Curse bad luck
Because I'm stuck
on the outside looking in.

there are no words ( Read more... )

Do you ever just think about the likelihood of something and have such a hard time deciding whether you think it is or is not likely depending on what you happen to think at the time?  And then you think about whether or not you *want* it to be likely, and then everything just gets all messed up.  Yeah, I'm there.  I'm also exhausted!  Gotta switch ( Read more... )

My dad sent this to me a few days ago, and I finallly sat down to read it.  Definitely worth it ( Read more... )

I really hurt my knee yesterday... This is bad news  I am going to kill this dog.  Also bad news.  Today is going to be a long day.  Still bad news.

But tonight is going to be a very good, happy, relaxing night.  : )