“give me my heart back you toad”
i thought-yelled in his general direction
as if toads deserved the reference…
“if you settle you will always settle for less”
prescribed in an email, a forwarded mess
well what happens if the first was the best?
“reap ye what ye have sowed”
unhelpfully soothed in my ear
as if farming for boys was

scarce and mellow are people who love
through walls or letters secretly
in shallow places whispered of
like muffled voices in a raging sea
for even though we drowned our wit
in the bucket by the door,
we all live in oceans now
pretending that’s what we are living for.

right then i knew that it was just me and the world.
no love that presses on my heart can explain this
there is no love in loneliness
whether life has eyes or no,
when it is swallowed blind and whole.

Watching someone you had a lot of respect and admiration for turn into a douchebag is a very sad thing.

this is rocket summer. and i like this song ( Read more... )

tonight we watched from murphy's irish pub as france handed ireland a whooping in rugby.

in other news, i just want to be somebody's baby.

yeesh.

i have no idea what i'm doing.

if you've read the poem, "the art of losing"

i think that poem is true.

the hard part is what comes after.

I am on fire.
I imagine it to be a fierce and golden light
If it is not, then it is not any color of this world
For none can claim it truthfully.
Tongues of flame so patient in the daylight
Will spark brightly when day is dark
Exciting that which only eyes devoured
And smoky whispers breathed about before. They disappeared.
I am on fire.

i love when an inside joke happens that only you and one other person know about and that person winks at you about it from across the room.

So last night i had a really freaky dream. I was in the passenger seat of a car and the song "Play Crack the Sky" was playing really loud on the stereo. I don't even know whose car it was. It was dark and as we whipped around a corner, the car crashed. I don't have a lot of the "I died" dreams but I'm pretty sure I did in this one. Anyway, right ( Read more... )