i will sing you lullabies...

[auroragoryalice]

i don't know what's with me anymore...anytime something halfway good happens, something else has to pull me back down and kick the shit out of me. i'm so confused, i went to the city with my mom yesterday and i ended up just spilling my guts to her...everything came out about things that have happened and how i've been affected by them and it took

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[chaos_rules]

Just know I care. I know your like 100 miles away but that doesnt make a diff.

I would have been calling but you dont have your phone....

*huggles* get to feeling better. its always darkest before dawn

[vegachick]

First of all..whoever chaos_rules is, is a hottie!

Girl keep your head up. You got friends here and you know it! You can always talk to me and i'm always here to listen and help when i can, i love you!

[laundry_soap]

People sometimes grow apart. BUT IT DOESN'T MEAN THAT THEY DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU AND THAT THEY AREN'T HURT BY BEING SHUNNED BY THEM. But I'm not one to interfere. If that's how you feel, maybe we should take some time apart. Do whatever YOU want to do. I don't want to be the one responsible for your pain. I love you and thought you're right next to me, I feel so far apart.

[auroragoryalice]

speaking of being shunned...how do you think i felt last night when you didn't even bother coming and talking to me til you were about to leave with Summer...? yeah, i felt hurt...and YOU love me? whatever...i thought you did care, if you did care Kevyn you would have noticed how distant i've been to you lately...it's all about you and Summer now...so whatever YOU want. Didn't you notice the last time we hung out (when you and summer picked me up at like 6:30) how i didn't really say much? That's because you two were all about eachother...i don't want to be the fucking 3rd wheel...i don't want to be left out again. You mean/meant EVERYTHING to me...i don't know what to do now that we're not talking (WITHOUT SUMMER IN THE SAME ROOM), it's either, you and summer making fun of me, or it's just you two talking and leaving me out on your "inside jokes" ...you feeling hurt?!?! what the fuck did i do? i'm not hanging out with you and someone else and then ignoring you the whole time we're together. I thought you understood me...

[auroragoryalice]

I can't believe you're giving up so easily on such a close friendship, Kevyn...I thought you cared about me...

i'm sorry

[ephyouseekay_83]

after a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul. and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning. and company doesn't mean security. and you begin to learn that kisses aren't contacts. and presents aren't promises. and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open. with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child. and learn to build all your roads today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans. and futures have a way of falling down in mid flight. after a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. you learn that you really can endure. that you really are strong. and you really do have a worth. and you learn and you learn. with every goodbye

[laundry_soap]

whatever.