this has been a long day...i don't want to talk all about it right now, because i'm kind of out of it; the codiene is taking affect and i might fuck it up...i've been so full of all of these emotions and they all came up when i saw my dad today. I've missed him so much. His trial was today and when i saw him come out of the elevator in his orange ( Read more... )

i hate myself...i'm sick of this shit...get over it already...get over him. So he can love Dwan...why do i care so much? it's over between us...he can love whoever he wants to love. Why do i still care??? Please tell me how i can still love someone who hates me with such passion...??? GET OVER IT ( Read more... )

...i'm scared; i'm nervous...if there is a Gawd, my daddy won't be sentenced to 15 years in prison. If there is a Gawd, my daddy can stay here with me. I miss him; i want him to be okay...i don't even care anymore about anything anymore, i just want my daddy to be okay. It's not fair, it's not fucking fair. I hate the cops, i hate the way they ( Read more... )

i'd like to know why i even bother feeling ( Read more... )

It's my birthday and I'll do what I want to - Fuck You it's my birthday. - A special holiday only for me, so do what I say, - it's my party, I'll make you cry if I want to...or leave. - Fuck You, it's not your birthday, so do what I say, okay - For 24 hours your wishing me well - 364 days I'm in hell, Oh well. - Happy Birthday to me. - alone on my ( Read more... )

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i'm so tired right now...i don't want to stay awake for Votech ( Read more... )

my head is killing me! *urg* i'm all shaky right now and i don't know why ( Read more... )

Chris finally told me off...not to my face, but through a letter. He told me that he wants nothing to do with me and if i stayed away that'd be great. What'd i do? I cried. I cried so hard Mr. Day sent me out of his class to speak to the counselor. I went to the bathroom and sat on the floor bawling like a fucking baby. i'm pathetic. The ( Read more... )