The upcoming winter holidays are something I see as an oppourtunity to catch up with certain aspects of my life that I have been neglecting. I've started making packages and well as purchasing certain presents for others. I'm more into giving than recieving - or rather, I like assembling packages ( Read more... )

As of late, I've been attempting with greater determination than usual to turn my words into actions. My life is slowly improving and pieces are fitting together and even though there are bits that break, I try to fix them or direct my focus elsewhere. The latter being something that I used to fail at miserably. Now, I'm not exactly good at it (see ( Read more... )

Your hands tell me when you lie and so far, they have never failed me. I look into your eyes but we both know what to do. They don't know like the both of us, so they feel reassured. Look, I know I don't need to help you...but I want to. Please look to see that nobody's forcing me.

I seek my comfort in a glass of milk with ice cubes in it, I like the numbing sensation that ice gives me. I lie on the wooden floor turning my Möbius strip over and over again, pondering over the Law of Accumulation. When I get bored, I do squares and cubes in my head, 12x12x12 = 1728 or I recite the names of countries, capital cities. I also ( Read more... )

Today is one of those days where I like to lock myself in my room and make as little noise as possible. It's one of those days where I lie on the floor with a pillow, sipping cold soy milk. While I have cold soba for dinner and I like the ice cubes in my bowl. Curtains drawn, no music. If I had to play something though, It would be anything by ( Read more... )

In many ways, my life is marked by pseudo friendships ( Read more... )

There are things that happen once every few centuries (or in the case of mars creeping closer august '05, every 60,000 years). There are rare flowers that only bloom every 80 years. Things like these tug at my emotions - they play tug of war with my strings, treat me like I'm a puppet and they are the puppeteer. I want to see, experience and hear ( Read more... )

You know that feeling you get sometimes, when you think things can't get worst? Today was one of those days for me. I just want to take a long strip of tape and cover my mouth with it. So that I'll be able to breathe, but not talk ( Read more... )

I might be running away, I might not be. I just needed to get away from all that mess. I didn't want to continue what I started. Couldn't last forever. I can't keep promises without meaning to myself. I can do many things for others that I can't do for myself. I probably don't think I'm worthwhile.