Funny that Youtube didn't exist but livejournal did. It's weird going back and reading one's response to such a strange day. I was working at a newspaper at the time, even tho smalltown, so right away all the jingoistic imagery got put up everywhere and I was infected with it a little bit too. That's when I started to go crazy! Well then, and when the anthrax attacks began.
The divorce. It destroyed me. I'd graduated college in Dec of 00 and with a marriage that was falling apart which I sucked up to get through the last semester. That was difficult. I remember the wind feeling a bit colder.
After that, we "tried", I suppose. I sacrificed a marriage for education and knew I was running the risk. It was supposed to be a happier time but it wasn't.
With that said, it was a good thing because it was inevitable. She was a bit older than me (8 years) and wanted kids. I figured I'd get into a space where I would want kids but it wouldn't happen. We had a pregger scare and I was ecstatic she wasn't pregnant.
That hurt her. And made her suspicious.
It's been a long time since and I still lack the desire to have a kid. So, in the short run it was a bad thing but in the long run, it was a good thing.
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The first song of theirs that really went straight to my brain.
Love that track.
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I got an abortion a week after 9/11 happened. My good friend got shot with rubber bullets from riot cops in L.A. that summer.
It was just a fucked up year. Sounds like it was a fucked up year for you, too. Or was getting divorced a good thing?
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After that, we "tried", I suppose. I sacrificed a marriage for education and knew I was running the risk. It was supposed to be a happier time but it wasn't.
With that said, it was a good thing because it was inevitable. She was a bit older than me (8 years) and wanted kids. I figured I'd get into a space where I would want kids but it wouldn't happen. We had a pregger scare and I was ecstatic she wasn't pregnant.
That hurt her. And made her suspicious.
It's been a long time since and I still lack the desire to have a kid. So, in the short run it was a bad thing but in the long run, it was a good thing.
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