what is someone supposed to do or think? everything so often seems like it isnt real anyways, its confusing and bothersome. i have to admit that at the current point in time i am quite distressed. today there was an annoucment at school about a boy, a senior at my school named ben who died last night. he was hit by a car crossing the street. when i ( Read more... )

well, to sum it all up i whore,my costume to the garage, and i honestly didnt know itd be that revealing, or come across that way. everyone was staring at me touching me and making comments the whole night, i mean it was fun and funny, but i felt really really bad at the same time. but pointingly it was a fabulous show ( Read more... )

i went shopping for my haloween ostume today after school. i guess you could say it went jolly ( Read more... )

well at jimmys game last night, i saw the girl leigh, who i havnt seen prolly since i was like 6! her mom worked at the hospice my grandma was in and she took care of her when my g-ma died. me and her used to play together sll the time when i went to visit, and it was just nuts. she goes to jimmys school, and i barely recognized her, she is ( Read more... )

wow. the only comfort im getting right now, is the nagging assurance that i still feel like shit, and everything is still going to suck when i wake up in the morning. that, and that jimmy and i are somehow still together. i would have figured he woulda dropped my idiot ass by now. haha guess i was wrong. i cant hate him for it tho. i <3 jimmy. so ( Read more... )

i got so violently angry at my mother this morning, that i aqiured a brand spankin new hole in my wall, courtesy of my storage room doorknob! what a prize to recieve on such a godforsaken dreary day. i was actually quite proud of myself...while the hole-in-the-wall adrenaline recievings was aparently amusing and apathetically comforting, the ( Read more... )

well today has been really funny! and right now im at dnn bro's coffee with jimmy sam and vicky and we came to visit anna cause shes working! we are also waiting for andy to come but im guessing he ran out of gas because he was on :E: when we last checked haha poor5 andy ( Read more... )

i love music. it just has its way of making your nerves tingle adn exite you to the point where you have to move to the beat. isnt it interesting to think in a physical aspect about music? why do people like music, and how does sound have its way of making you want to move? it seems very complex now that i think about it...i think its a very ( Read more... )

im SO fucking pissed off. im so incredibly mad. i want to fucking break something. my mom and i arent exactly geting along too well right now. shes being fucking stupid. i love her sont get me wrong but im SO FUCKING MAD AT HER. its ok. she hates me too. so whatever. my parents are becoming really fucking stupid about jimmy. they now regularly tell ( Read more... )

i think ive eaten too much. ive been CRAVING tomato soup and grilled chese all damn day, so of course when i got home i binged on it. now i feel sicker than ive been feeling all day. my mom couldnt pick me up so i had to sit there all day long it sucked. the rain always makes me sad when its cold...because then its un-usable for happiness to me. ( Read more... )