i returned from utah on june 15th, with 3 new peircings, a furthermore bruised heartache, and many exellent experiances from which ihad the oppertunity to learn a little more about others and myself. i met new ppl, and had some great times. the main reason behind my going was for my sisters wedding. but i also craved the oppertunity to get together ( Read more... )

wow. all of a sudden i just got this really rejected sad and anxious feeling. there are some things that contributed to it, but im not really sure on why i feel it anyway ( Read more... )

yeah. i just hung out with jon tonight. he obviously still has to figure out what hes doing, cause we were laying there and he and his freind started talking about "jessica" and, i was like ooook, you wer just, yeah, um, IM RIGHT HERE? i didnt say anything but thats what i was thinking. why does he even fucking bother really. why did he bother to ( Read more... )

OMG IM SO HAPPI RIGHT NOW~!!!!! nickie and megan came over tonight cause they had walked to kfc and blockbuster, and they brought over some movies and one of em was mommie dearest, super disturbing movie... BUT THEY BROUGHT TOO WONG FOO THANX FOR EVERYTHING JULIE NEWMAR!!!!! you dont even understand how much of my favorite movie this one is!!! ive ( Read more... )

laast night. whaaat a night. i had alot of fun, although some parts were made kinda gah-ish by some people, but it was really fun and awesome overall. we ordered a ton of pizza and ate a shiz load, and drank alot of soda. we heard the ice cream man, and i literally flew out of the gazebo where we wer chilin to go chase it down. i got 2 ninja turtle ( Read more... )

well yes things seem to be going ok. ive stuffed it down for now and that seeminlgy anxious choke feeling has settled for the time being. its a little releiving. im geting exited!!!!!now only 7 days till my much awaited happiness! im going to work on my "maid of honor speech" in the car on the drive down. this wedding is such a good thing. its so ( Read more... )

ok, im working my ass off for this stupid god damned auto biography! its driving me nuts. im staying up too late at night, and i hate being so grogy in the mornings! gah! i cant wait till its over! this is what i get for slacking off, and making my passing rely on one gigantic project. ::smacks self:: jk, but really. i need a good shower to relax. ( Read more... )

well, after updating my confession of love for marilyn manson, i shal now express my extreeme happiness and exitement............................................................................................I GOT CHUCKS!!! I GOT CHUCKS!!! I GOT CHUCKS!!! I GOT CHUCKS!!! I GOT CHUCKS ( Read more... )

HOLY DEAR GOD DAMN. I HAVE HAD THE BEST DREAM OF MY ENTIRE LIFE LAST NIGHT/this morning. ALL OF A SUDDEN, I WAS STANDING IN A ROOM, AND MARILYN MANSON WAS THERE. i was in this paleish blue room with no door or window. there was black contemoprary furniture. and the lighting was shadowy.

~my dream in extreeeeme detail~

i was immidiatly stunned by ( Read more... )

i neeed help. something is wrong with me.im going to go read about my biological family because i dont think there is any sense in waiting anymore. why not figure it out now. why put it off, if im insane anyway. i dont want to wait anymore i dont think it would be good to wait anymore. im sick of this. im sick of everything why is it so hard!!! why ( Read more... )