i'm sorry to everyone for how ive been acting the last month
i dont have very much control over it
my mom wants me to go to counsiling
i REALLY REALLY dont want to do that

i'm dying inside to be happy
i'm a wreck.

everytime something good happens in my life
it gets ripped away and replaced with something worse than ever before

i'm hopin i'll get out of this hole soon

it's a snowday
AND IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!

i think my life just progressively gets worse
now on top of my surgery friday,
i have another one coming up soon

i bet no one reads this anymore because it's always so negative
there is a wicked sweet boy that likes me:)
and brenda and me are tight now, and i owe her a lot for the last couple days
thats it actually.. haha

i dont get what i keep doing wrong
and i dont get how i deserve this at all
i tried my ass off to get you to talk to me
and you threw it in my face
it doesn't seem like i'm the one who doesn't care about the others happiness
remember that time you told me my happiness was all that mattered?

what do i have to do to get you to talk to me ( Read more... )

( if you were erin[you probably dont wanna read this )

dear l3

please talk to me
i dont get what i ever did to deserve to be ignored for 3 days
and i miss mcdonalds and nysync sing alongs and picking on you for being shy and i miss going outside and singing your face at my door, i miss your hugs:(
please stop! please:(

dear

i quit trying
i'm sorry i tried so hard to be nice

i just want someone to want me!
:(

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