Damned if you do....

[autumnangyl]

Damned if you dont, thats how I have felt today. Ive had one of those days where I feel like nothing I do will turn out the way its supposed to, almost has me tempted to try doing it the way it would surely screw something up, just to see if it works in reverse

Comments

[tiger2003]

*shrugs* just me here, but perhaps that's what you need to do? I never had a blood family to speak of....you know this....but perhaps what you need to do is explain what you went through, but not worry about the feelings staying where they are. Sometimes...even family needs to see those feelings to "understand" (as much as a third party can) what you went through and the only way to do that is not hold feelings back. I'm not saying to be rude, but don't keep your feelings bottled up anymore. Hell, Darlin, you had to do that for 15 years that you were married to the asshole...you couldn't even keep a journal. It's time you let those feelings out. Even if it's on paper (in LJ). But maybe you need to show some of your family your true feelings and that you are an adult and deserve to be respected as such. :)

Just my two cents. :)

[spaz1999]

I have to agree with Josh. Eek! I hope no one reads that.

Families are often the hardest ones on us. My grandmother still makes excuses for my uncle doing things to little girls, when she admits it happened. You know what happened. You know the abuse you went through. Don't let them tell you that you didn't. Mental abuse is just as bad if not worse then physical.

The only bad thing about letting it all out to them is that you'll have to relive it. But maybe you need to do that to your family regardless of the results. I'm sorry family is like that. *hugs*