i've never felt so close to failure. why can't i just do this?

lots of tears last night, trying to just escape into a little cave, working on damage control

haven't picked up my camera in over a week = calie not doing so great

"Proving what you set out to prove is boring, uninteresting, and, I think, mildly depressing."- Tom Jacobs

many people feel really distressed in new york. they were probably fairly popular in their high school, always chatting it up with people they knew, and if they didnt know them, then that person was ignored. this place is fucking perfect for me. i enjoy keeping to myself, but i don't have standards about who i talk to. i like strangers. we've never ( Read more... )

i had the room to myself, which i tried to utilize for productiveness, but when jesse came back and said that she considered this to be her home over her real home i thought that was really nice and made me realize that it was kinda lonely here. this is really the most i've stayed in my dorm since i've been here, and i'm still behind in my work, ( Read more... )

need shower. work at 3:30, no 3:00 keep your times straight. 3 fucking essays due monday. work. last night was fun. rum. rum rum rum hahah.making friends. disconnected lucidness. i wish wil would be more easygoing. i love him, but i want to have fun. sent gallary photos off- not going to fret. scotch tape. fortune cookies. need to process film, but ( Read more... )

i honestly can't believe i'm sitting here writing this entry from a room located four stories high with the address 35 5th ave. the city just feels different. i know it all hasnt completely soaked in that this is basically permanent. sooooo many people...with their lateral lines so they come close but not touch. its difficult to make friends, ( Read more... )