I don't care who. I wanna fall in love with complete strangers. Be new the next day. Fall in love the way I fall in love with the outdoors on a beautiful day. Just that great butterflyie feeling when a beautiful girl looks in your eyes. the rush holding some ones hand for the first time. I dunno, I'm not really sure what I want. I want to feel ( Read more... )

I am really getting over life.
Completely.

I feel my self dying inside.
the feelings i once thrived off of are drying up.
now all i feel is jealousy, anger, the urge to destroy... the urge to get fucking annihilated, which i guess is only suppressed by lack of money.
I feel so confused and lost.
I have never been so past giving up.

I said I would make this post.
But I am in denial and keep ignoring things.
I dunno whats next.

julia nunes is so fly tho :p

I have a list of things I need to start doing for myself and my happiness. A post is soon to follow I just needed to make a note of it here before I forget/ptfo. I may call on friends. I have a hard road ahead of me. I have a problem.

My life is a series of mistakes and fuck ups.
I am never going to get anywhere or amount to anything.
pantywaste.

I want some.
Well, synthetic anyway.

But every day, I feel like my existence is completely un needed.
Not going anywhere, not doing anything.
Just bout ready to drop off the face of the earth, and the feeling gets stronger each and every day.

This is such a weird place for me, I never know weather or not I should post the things I say, So as usual I keep my sad thoughts to my self ( Read more... )

And I still feel the same way I did in the last entry.